#469 – Oliver Anthony: Country Music, Blue-Collar America, Fame, Money, and Pain

0:00:05 The following is a conversation with Oliver Anthony, singer-songwriter from Virginia,
0:00:11 who first gained worldwide fame with his viral hit, Rich Men North of Richmond.
0:00:18 He became a voice for many who are voiceless, with his songs speaking to the struggle of
0:00:24 the working class in modern American life. His legal name is Christopher Anthony Lunsford.
0:00:31 Oliver Anthony was his grandfather’s name. So Chris used this name as a dedication to his
0:00:36 grandfather and to 1930s Appalachia, where his grandfather was born and raised.
0:00:44 Dirt floors, seven kids, hard times, as Chris says. He’s happy to be called either one, by the way.
0:00:50 I’ve gotten to know Chris more since the recording of this conversation. He truly is, as he appears
0:00:57 online and in his songs. Down to earth, humble, and a good man who deeply feels the pain of the
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0:08:51 And now, dear friends, here’s Christopher Lunsford, or as many of you know him as Oliver Anthony.
0:09:06 So I was texting you, uh, last night, uh, sitting at an open mic, listening to a guy perform Great
0:09:12 Balls of Fire. Uh, like I told you, he was giving everything he got for like five people in the audience,
0:09:15 plus me. Well, you were there. I’d been, I’d have been doing it too, if you were out there. Like, oh,
0:09:23 that’s Lex Friedman. No, man. He was, uh, this big dude on a keyboard, just everything. Sweaty, long hair. You could
0:09:28 tell, like, he was there in his own little world. I love the courage of that, of just giving it
0:09:33 everything. I don’t think he wants to be famous. I don’t think he wants anything in life except to be
0:09:39 there and to play like his heart out. That’s why I love open mics. Like some people still aspire to be
0:09:45 famous when they play open mics, but some people, maybe they’ve given up or maybe they never wanted
0:09:50 to be famous. They’re just there for the pure artistry of it. So yeah. And you said you started
0:09:54 out playing open mics at shitty bars. What was that like? Well, yeah, real quick,
0:09:59 before I forget too, a great example of a, of a guy who had that same mindset and was able to
0:10:04 maintain it really well as this mandolin player named Johnny Stats in West Virginia. To me,
0:10:09 he’s one of the best and he’s won all these awards and stuff. And he still works for UPS full time.
0:10:14 And like, he could go out and tour with it, play mandolin for anybody he wanted to. But he,
0:10:18 but man, when you meet Johnny, like you can tell he’s just got this, um,
0:10:26 this joy in him that I don’t think he would have if he, but as far as me with the open mics, um,
0:10:33 yeah, it was just, it was a lot of them were really, a lot of them were embarrassing. There
0:10:36 was a couple, I remember there was times where I’d go up and try to do, I do like one song.
0:10:41 I get like halfway through the next song and I’d be so nervous by that point. I didn’t,
0:10:43 I couldn’t remember any of the words. And there’s a couple of times I’ve,
0:10:49 I remember there was one time in particular that I just, I just walked off halfway through the song,
0:10:53 put my guitar in the case and just, well, I just left. I didn’t even like, couldn’t even stay in
0:10:58 there. Just total, you know, just total freak out. Just embarrassment. And I never drank in bars
0:11:03 either. Like I’m not a, I wasn’t really a social drinker. So I was just there to try to do the mic.
0:11:07 So it was kind of, I was a little out of place anyway. I feel kind of out of place in a bar to
0:11:11 start with. So yeah, it was back when you could smoke in bars. There’s a whole vibe to it. People
0:11:17 smoke and drinking and yeah, definitely, you know, bombing in a place like that when the audience
0:11:24 there’s like five people and they’re bored. Yeah. There was one like that. It was in Motoka. It
0:11:29 wasn’t that far from where I lived. The place is gone now, but, uh, it was about as big as the room
0:11:34 we’re in here. If that, you know, like the, the ceiling tiles were yellow from where everybody
0:11:38 had smoked in it since the beginning of time. And, but like, yeah, that was my little spot.
0:11:42 Those little type of spots. You did covers. What’d you play? What was your go-to?
0:11:47 Back then it was like, uh, I don’t know, fishing in the dark, nitty gritty band, or like, um,
0:11:54 any of those old Hank, like Hank Jr songs, like any of those bar type, um, David Allen Co.,
0:11:57 like you never call me by my name, any of that kind of stuff. And I haven’t even played any
0:12:02 of those in forever now, but that was any of those ones where you get people singing along
0:12:04 and stuff. That’s what I’d always try to do. You know?
0:12:09 Yeah. That song you performed, take me home, uh, country road and how’s that go? West Virginia.
0:12:16 Yeah. John Denver was just, uh, one of those guys that it’s who knows where he would have went
0:12:21 long-term if he wouldn’t have passed, but you know, it’s a fun song that I love. I shouldn’t,
0:12:25 but I love is, uh, what is it? Uh, like, thank God I’m a country boy.
0:12:32 I think that’s what I liked about John Denver was he was a little bit like he let himself be a little
0:12:38 bit corny in the spirit of like having fun with it. Like, um, great example. There’s this old older
0:12:43 guy that not a lot of people have heard of named Roy Clark, but, um, my farm’s like a mile down the road
0:12:47 from Roy Clark’s old farm, but he, he used to be on he-haw. I don’t know if you ever heard of that old
0:12:53 show from like the sixties or whatever, but crazy dude, he could pick any instrument up. Like there’s
0:12:56 videos on YouTube of them, but he would just sit there and just pick anything up and just rip it to
0:13:01 death. But he would always just be real silly about it. He never had, he never took it to never took
0:13:06 himself too seriously. You know, some people go to the fun place. Some people go to the dark place.
0:13:11 Yeah. There’s a, you know, country can do both. You, you, you more often go to the dark place
0:13:18 to the, to the pain. Yeah. Well, especially some of the new songs that are coming out that they’ll be
0:13:24 probably not. I mean, I don’t know what they’ll be. I don’t know what is country anymore. Anyway,
0:13:28 I don’t know that many people who listen to the type of music that I grew up listening to and probably
0:13:33 listen to country radio anymore. Anyway, like, I think there’s, there’s quite a lot of people who don’t,
0:13:39 who’ve sort of disowned that space, you know, in commercialized country, you only really get what
0:13:45 sells, which in a lot of what sells, isn’t necessarily what matters. Well, you had that
0:13:50 whole experience where they take what you recorded and polish it, quote unquote, try to make it perfect.
0:13:55 And then so doing destroy the soul of the thing. And so probably that happens with these big artists.
0:14:03 They’re so famous. It’s like a machine. And so what the machine does is it over polishes things.
0:14:10 And so the raw, like power of the person, the uniqueness of the person, the soul of the person
0:14:14 is gone if you do that. Yeah. Well, I think professionalism in general, like
0:14:23 applying the tactics of corporate America to anything that is baseline artistic is not going to end well.
0:14:28 They’re all individually brilliant. But together, this corporate speak comes out.
0:14:36 Yeah. Just the soul of the people dissipates, it disappears. Why are you all pretending that
0:14:45 like life is not terrible and beautiful and like, you’re both scared, shitless and excited. And
0:14:52 this guy’s going through a divorce. This person just fell in love. Like you’re getting the intensity
0:15:00 of life with this corporate, like nine to five, like, hi, John. It’s great to see you today.
0:15:08 Oh, you too. You as well. You as well. But when I look at it, I’m like, why am I whining? I feel like
0:15:14 a Bukowski type character because like, they’re all really nice. They’re all good people. But like,
0:15:19 something is gone when you have this corporate machine. Well, they’re there to fill a role
0:15:24 contractually. And if they, I think if they bring too many of their human elements into that, then
0:15:29 they jeopardize losing their sense of security. And it’s all just out of fear. It’s out of fear of losing
0:15:34 your job. I mean, it’s the reason why all the songs say Oliver Anthony and not Christopher Lunsford on
0:15:39 them. You know, like it’s fear of, it’s so difficult to, especially now it seems, I mean, who knows?
0:15:43 I didn’t, I was never around in the forties or fifties to work a job. I’m sure they were probably
0:15:48 pretty miserable back then, but you know, they talk about now, like how difficult it is,
0:15:53 like the, the impossibility of having a single family household or anything else. But like,
0:15:59 when you find a decent paying job that you can do without it, just torturing you every day, that’s,
0:16:05 that’s a pretty important thing now, you know, like, and so it, it’s pretty easy to just,
0:16:10 it’s pretty easy to kind of turn yourself into a robot for eight or 10 hours a day out of fear of,
0:16:15 it’s like, you don’t want to be yourself too much because maybe part of yourself isn’t something
0:16:21 that’s accepted in this like dystopian nightmare that you go to work at every day. And so you just
0:16:26 got to do your best to just not step on any toes or do anything that, that makes you stand out too much,
0:16:31 you know? And now it’s like, now, like when you scroll through some of these videos of people,
0:16:35 like the big, even when I was still like, when I was still working my lame job,
0:16:40 it was like, there was this whole big thing of people talking about quiet quitting or something
0:16:44 like that, where they were just going to go to work, but not really do anything. But that hurts me so
0:16:51 much. That hurts me when you just stop when you’re there, but you’re not really there. That makes me so
0:16:55 sad. Yeah. So then they wonder, these companies just slowly kind of fall apart and disintegrate
0:17:00 because they’re so worried about structure and, you know, like, I mean, God, man, even in,
0:17:06 even in America today, our culture has become, because so many big corporations own and manage
0:17:11 everything that we live under, like food, agriculture, healthcare, like social media,
0:17:16 it’s all in corporate structures that it’s almost like a lot of the problems we find ourselves in now
0:17:23 with society, I think are like, it’s just because of, it’s almost like corporate HR has been implemented
0:17:28 into our whole thought process of everything. You know, it’s like, um, I think that’s kind of what
0:17:34 you’re touching on though. It’s like, it’s, it’s hard to be, it’s hard to be a human and be a good
0:17:41 little corporate employee at the same time. Um, and as our whole society moves more into like becoming
0:17:46 a, like basically one big corporation, it’s like, you don’t want to piss the HR lady off. So it’s a lot
0:17:51 easier for me to just beep boop. We’re all sort of just turning, we’re all turning into robots,
0:17:56 you know, and that’s, uh, I’ve talked to great engineers about this. Uh, Jim Keller’s a legendary
0:18:03 engineer, Elon, Elon Musk is another example that you need that. I don’t know what’s a nice term for,
0:18:09 but you need the because you want to get to the ground truth of things to the first principle of
0:18:13 things. Like how do we simplify? How do we make it more efficient? How do we move faster? How do we get
0:18:21 shit done? And that has no place for this kind of polite speak? And then, you know, other great
0:18:26 team members swoop in and like repair the damage that the tornado has done.
0:18:31 Do you think that’s cause I’m not, I’m not super well versed about all this. So I’m probably dumb
0:18:36 to even mention it, but, um, this guy who’s been helping me with doing a documentary, uh, he’s been
0:18:43 following me around since the very first show at the August of 23, he, his background was doing,
0:18:48 um, promotional videos for Boeing, like for on their new spacecraft to pitch it to whoever.
0:18:53 And so he was, we touched, we touched base a little bit on Boeing. And of course they’re having a lot of
0:19:00 problems now. It sounds like, and he was comparing that with SpaceX or with, you know, like that,
0:19:05 that I think it’s that exactly what we touched on with that thought process of that sort of
0:19:09 dehumanization within companies. I think that’s what ultimately causes maybe, I don’t know if
0:19:13 there’s a connection there or not, but it seems like Boeing is a very, would be more of that.
0:19:18 They don’t have that tornado. They’re very like H like he was telling me, even just with his protocols
0:19:22 and some of the people he worked with, like, everything’s just very, you know, lightly touch
0:19:25 everything. No one don’t touch anything too hard.
0:19:32 So it’s not just HR. It’s also, it’s just this managerial class where it’s like Bob from this
0:19:37 department has to schedule a meeting with John from this department and Debbie, like they have
0:19:43 to have a meeting two and a half weeks from now. And then there’s paperwork and that, that bureaucracy
0:19:50 that’s created in the managerial class just slows everything down. And one of the things that slowing
0:19:57 everything down does is it really demotivates the people that are actually doing the shit. Like the
0:20:04 people on the ground, the engineers that are building stuff, it’s again, so drenching to like,
0:20:12 be excited, show up. And now you hit this wall of paperwork. Like you can’t, you have to wait for John and
0:20:19 Debbie and I forgot the third guy’s name that I imagined in my head to have a meeting. It just,
0:20:27 and then you kind of slow down and you disappear in terms of that fire, that passion that’s required
0:20:28 to create big things.
0:20:31 Yeah. Cause they don’t believe there’s a lack of leadership. And if they don’t believe in,
0:20:37 if they don’t believe in that leadership, then why the hell would they be motivated? I mean,
0:20:44 I remember, um, a while back watching a Jocko Wilnick talk about a, um, talk about that when
0:20:49 he was in leadership, when he was leading his guys, I think he mentions it in his book is probably where
0:20:56 I remember seeing it. Um, one of his books and he talks about like how important it was for the people
0:21:01 under him in rank to believe in what he was, the actions he was giving them, even if he necessarily
0:21:07 didn’t agree with him himself. It was like there, it’s really hard to take orders and go and like to,
0:21:12 to have human spirit and especially in something that’s innovative and not if you, if you’re working
0:21:16 for a company where you just think everybody’s dumb. I mean, I can certainly relate with that.
0:21:20 I mean, God, that’s all at my old job. That’s all we did was we spent half our day just talking about
0:21:26 how, how dumb we thought everybody was that was above, you know, it’s like, it’s easy to fall into that
0:21:31 and a corporate world. And so, yeah, the morale gets terrible and, and, and everyone suffers as
0:21:36 a result of it, you know, like the, the people at the top who are implementing all that dysfunction
0:21:40 suffer and the people at the bottom, it’s like, it’s not good for anybody. I had thought now that
0:21:47 I’m doing this, that I could escape away from that, but that exact same mentality and that dysfunction and
0:21:53 that, um, that inefficiency, like I still battle it every day.
0:21:58 That’s why it takes, it takes unique characters to lead the way. Such unique characters are very
0:22:02 much needed in the music industry to revolutionize everything, cut through the bureaucracy, the
0:22:08 bullshit that ultimately is just a machine that steals money and doesn’t get any, anything done.
0:22:13 really. Uh, we’ll talk about it. By the way, all the love in the world to Jocko. He’s great. I’ve been
0:22:20 going through lots of ups and downs in life, lots of low points for myself over the past, uh,
0:22:29 shit, three years really. But, um, uh, recently, especially, and he always texts in this, in this
0:22:37 very high testosterone way of like, of like, you good, bro. Just checking in. I mean, he’s a good man.
0:22:41 He’s a good man. He’s a good man. He’s obviously an inspiration to millions of people, but also just,
0:22:48 um, he’s a good human being himself. So maybe one, one thing that we felt similarly, I’m just,
0:22:54 I would imagine you way more than me is just feeling like, like, wow, I have the ability to
0:23:02 influence or the ability to, to, to, to either bring truth or to improve people’s lives or, or,
0:23:07 you know, every word that you say sometimes matters so much. And you’re just like, man,
0:23:11 I’m an idiot. Like, I don’t, like, I don’t know, you know, like I would have never guessed.
0:23:14 I mean, I, we were kind of talking about that, but before about like, it would have never guessed
0:23:17 that it would have turned that this would have turned into all this, but it’s, it is a,
0:23:22 it is a, it is a weight that you bear, whether you really even acknowledge it or not, you know,
0:23:29 like, um, yeah. And I think it’s like, you know, the, the songs you’ve created,
0:23:36 they, uh, speak to the human condition, to the struggle of, uh, everyday working people
0:23:41 in a society that has the elites that tried to take advantage of those working people.
0:23:52 And you’re just speaking through your music, those truths of how life is. And then that has a huge
0:23:58 impact on a lot of people. That’s really positive. But then you also get attacked and misrepresented and
0:24:07 lied about from different angles and just the turmoil, the intense chaos of that. It disorients,
0:24:16 it disorients me like to be attacked by very large number of people to be lied about, to be just the,
0:24:24 because I love people and just have, I have a general optimism about humanity. It just disorients me.
0:24:31 Like, um, it gives me this feeling like I generally, just like you said, think of myself as kind of an
0:24:39 idiot, not really knowing what I’m doing. And when a lot of people tell you that you’re correct,
0:24:44 you don’t know what you’re doing. You start to like, want to hide, you want to hide from the world,
0:24:50 hide from yourself. And then there’s also just the chemistry of the brain. It’s like you shake up the
0:24:55 brain a little bit. It starts getting, it starts getting weird. And it’s so you can get how many
0:25:01 fronts. You can get real lonely when getting attacked, when you’re kind of fucking things up
0:25:10 in many ways and get lonely. Yeah. So it’s been, so you get a text from Jocko, like you good.
0:25:16 Yeah. Yeah. And then I may have good friends. Andrew Huberman’s been great. Rogan’s been great.
0:25:25 Well, you know, you, Lex, however many years ago was in a different place in society than Lex is now.
0:25:29 And so it’s like every conversation you have or every relationship you have is inherently different,
0:25:34 even if you aren’t any different friends that you had from before maybe, or even just new people you
0:25:38 meet, your interactions with them are going to be a lot different than if this wasn’t a thing.
0:25:42 And so it’s like that, that can be tricky too. When you’ve spent your whole life,
0:25:46 you know, from the time you’re three years old and you’re starting to play with other kids and like
0:25:51 developmentally learning, like how to share and how to interact. And you’re on the, you’re playing,
0:25:57 you know, you’re playing on the playground with kids and learning how to like set rules and boundaries and
0:26:02 how to like basically fit into society. And like, so you have this whole learning pattern up until whatever
0:26:09 point in time when, when success happens and then it’s like all that shifts pretty dramatically all,
0:26:14 you know, in a relatively short period of time. And so like, how do you, how do you think like managing
0:26:19 your previous, like previous friendships or your like, like, you know, how has that been tricky for
0:26:27 you or like, yeah, it’s been tough. I, you know, I value deep, close, long-term friendships and yeah,
0:26:32 but I mean, I have amazing friends, but they certainly do treat me a little different. They,
0:26:39 they bust my balls noticeably less. Yeah. And you need, you need that. So I need, I not sometimes,
0:26:47 all the time. First of all, it’s how dudes show love is making fun of each other. At least my friends.
0:26:53 Yeah. Like, you know, we, when you watch, man, I’m going to get in trouble, but when you watch,
0:26:58 like women interact, they’re often like really positive towards each other. Like, oh, you look
0:27:06 great. Yeah. We watch dudes interact like close friends. They’re just like, I mean, busting each
0:27:14 other’s balls. I’ll stop making fun of each other. And so, yes, that has been a little bit harder.
0:27:20 Or I try, I try to break those walls. Like, but that’s why with the famous friends,
0:27:23 it’s a little bit easier. Cause they can still like Rogan roast me nonstop.
0:27:29 So it’s a, and it just feels good. I just sit there and get made fun of. And it’s great.
0:27:30 Yeah. It’s great.
0:27:34 And I still do it all the time. I just, it’s just a different experience now, but I,
0:27:40 I’m like a Goodwill junkie. Like, um, most of, like most of even my clothes were from
0:27:45 Goodwill, but like, I have this, I have this like addiction with buying paintings from Goodwill,
0:27:50 like the $8 paintings where it looks like somebody was following along with like a Bob Ross video,
0:27:54 and it didn’t work out quite right. Like I look, like I buy every one of those. I’ll go in there
0:27:58 and buy like 10. And so just even, you know, anytime you got into public now, it’s just like,
0:28:01 you know, it’s going to be a little different than it was, you know, I don’t know if that makes sense
0:28:05 or not, but yeah, for sure. I mean, I, you know, I’m trying to deal with it, but all of it, when you
0:28:11 talk to world leaders, when you step into politics a little bit and you apparently stepped into politics,
0:28:16 even though you never meant to, you’re not a political person that, that world is like,
0:28:25 what the fuck? It’s very intense, especially at an intense moment in history and in an extremely
0:28:30 divided country. So. Yeah. Like saying that I’m not in politics, people like, well, of course you’re
0:28:36 in politics and I don’t know whether I am or not, but just, um, I do think a lot of people in politics,
0:28:44 politics, like as far as the people who sit on the internet all day and argue about stuff on X or on
0:28:48 whatever, you know, Facebook and all, like, I do think their heart is in it for the right reasons.
0:28:53 They observe that there’s a lot of things wrong in the world that they’d like to see different. It’s just,
0:28:59 how do you get those people out of a, how do you get those people out of this four by four square?
0:29:05 And like, really like they’re, they’re entrapped in a, in a same kind of box that the people at Boeing
0:29:11 might be with that struck, you know, it’s too, it’s the tornado metaphor. I mean, it’s a bureau,
0:29:16 but it applies in politics too. Like there needs to just be a tornado through politics and we need
0:29:20 to figure, we need to just like lay all this other stuff aside and just figure out what’s really
0:29:26 pissing everybody off. What’s really affecting our quality of life. A lot of times we’re arguing over
0:29:30 the symptoms of problems instead of identifying the problems, if that makes any sense. I mean,
0:29:35 if Jordan Peterson were here, he would tell us about fire and how important that is and burning.
0:29:39 And like, but it is all the same. Water and fire and ice metaphor. And there would definitely
0:29:43 be a connection to the Bible and then we would receive a three hour lecture and it would be
0:29:47 profound. But it’s true, but it’s all true. Like that’s all true. It is all, it’s all a hundred
0:29:50 percent accurate. Yeah. That’s the crazy thing, but it all ties into that same thing. Like you,
0:29:56 um, yeah, in politics now, it’s almost like there’s a rule book that you have to follow. And if you,
0:30:00 you can’t agree with this unless you also agree with that, you know, it’s like,
0:30:06 and maybe it’s like the places, the way that we receive information about what’s going on in the
0:30:12 political landscape is always so biased. And it’s like the, well, it’s, it’s contingent upon this
0:30:18 algorithm, this like algorithmic system that we live under where we’re fed. It’s like, we’re almost fed
0:30:22 certain subcategories and it’s, and it’s easy to fall into that because you don’t like hearing things
0:30:27 you disagree with. And so it’s a lot easier to just turn the TV on or go on Facebook and look at
0:30:30 whatever page posts, things that, you know, you’re going to consistently agree with every day. And
0:30:35 that’s not going to challenge the way you think in any little way, you know, or, or like expand your
0:30:41 thinking at all. It’s, it’s easy to just, it’s kind of like a, it’s a cult-like type of thing. It’s like,
0:30:47 you know, here’s, this is what we all agree with. And if you don’t, then go and get, you know, like,
0:30:52 but it, it doesn’t, it, we’re far too complicated for it to really work that way.
0:30:55 Well, this actually relates to one of my favorite things in your conversation with Jordan,
0:31:02 where you’re just, where you’re just shooting the shit about like, uh, playing live music and he goes
0:31:11 to Kierkegaard. She’s like Soren Kierkegaard, the philosopher. I love Jordan so much. He just goes
0:31:18 to Carl Jung and Nietzsche. Um, and there, this idea from Kierkegaard that the crowd is untruth.
0:31:28 So when you, there’s elements to the crowd that loses the humanity and the honesty of an individual
0:31:35 that makes up the crowd, because the default incentive of the crowd is to conform to some
0:31:42 kind of narrative. It’s like, uh, it’s like a distributed system that arrives at a narrative
0:31:47 and the narrative holds control over that crowd as opposed to the individual humans who are thinking
0:31:53 for themselves and being honest with their own thoughts and realities and so on. And so that
0:32:01 he was saying that as a reason from a communication perspective, to speak to individuals in the crowd,
0:32:07 not to the crowd. So from the performer perspective, the moment you speak to the crowd, you’re speaking
0:32:12 to the lie that is the crowd according to Soren Kierkegaard. It’s pretty hardcore. Kierkegaard is
0:32:18 pretty hardcore. Jordan’s pretty hardcore. But that is true. I mean, but specifically in my case,
0:32:24 I mean, really it applies more than it probably does in a lot of cases with crowds and music,
0:32:31 you know, talking about Richmond, I wasn’t necessarily even excited that Richmond did as
0:32:36 well as it did. It was like, in a way it was almost like alarming that it did so well, you know? And so
0:32:42 those crowds that show up, like maybe they do like my music, but I also think they’re there for
0:32:48 something. There is something bigger about it. I mean, I, I wish I would have done a better job of
0:32:54 having people there at shows to capture some of those crowds I had in 24 man. You mean the size,
0:33:02 the intensity, the intensity, like it was revolutionary almost song of revolution. Yeah. I think a redemption
0:33:08 song from Bob Marley, like that song, it just connected with people. There’s something there.
0:33:13 Well, and so many people identified different elements. Like I said, it goes back to when we
0:33:17 were kind of talking, we first got here, but it was, it was crazy. How it was almost like at the
0:33:21 beginning with, along with the scrutiny and some of the other things, it was a lot of different people,
0:33:26 like almost fighting over me or fighting over it. Like, cause it resonated with different,
0:33:32 it resonated with people who voted differently than each other, which is, which is probably a
0:33:37 pretty terrifying thing. If you’re, if you’re in the business of keeping people divided and angry at
0:33:45 each other. So it was, you know, it was a, it was one of the first, one of the only times that I can
0:33:51 think where there was that, that much of a sense of unity among people who otherwise wouldn’t. I mean,
0:33:55 like, I mean, I think about nine 11, when I was a kid, I was in fourth grade, but God, man,
0:34:01 people were just like, people just put everything aside there for a little while. And it was kind of,
0:34:06 it was kind of like, there’s bigger problems that just aren’t in our face. And if man, if they’re in
0:34:13 your face for just for a second or two, you realize like it’s, it’s hard to, it’s hard in your mind to
0:34:17 create a graph. That’s got like all these, but you know, we argue about a lot of these problems,
0:34:22 but if you were to really look at them, like if you really just stand back and look at all the
0:34:27 problems we spend time focusing about on the internet versus all the things that are affecting
0:34:32 us, like that really, and probably at our core even piss us off. It’s, it’s gotta be very
0:34:37 disproportionate. And like the reason it got the reaction it did is because we all like, no matter
0:34:41 what it is that we’re upset about or what we think needs to be different in the world or our opinions of
0:34:46 things or how we’re raised or what our parents taught us. It’s like, I think we all feel a little bit
0:34:51 out of control in this new society. We all feel like we’re probably, we probably all feel like
0:34:55 we’re falling into this kind of like corporate power structure where none of us, where we all,
0:35:02 we all are just robots. We’re all just, we’re not allowed to be ourselves and be human almost,
0:35:02 you know?
0:35:09 And there was enough people feeling that. I mean, people on the left feeling like the people in
0:35:15 power fucking over the working class, people on the right feeling the exact same with different words
0:35:22 assigned to it, the deep state, you know, fucking over middle America, whatever the narratives are.
0:35:29 And they’re just, when enough of that is happening, again, with the corporate polite speak, there’s
0:35:35 something about politeness that’s really dangerous. I feel like there was a lot of politeness in the
0:35:43 Soviet union underneath that. It’s like Chernobyl, uh, which is this nuclear power plant and melted
0:35:54 down. Um, I feel like the bureaucracy needs politeness and civility and paperwork to function.
0:36:01 And then atrocities can happen underneath that. So everybody, people in power with a smile on their
0:36:10 face can just do horrific things and then give propaganda that look, you know, it’s rainbows and
0:36:17 sunshine and, and unicorns. Yeah. So people that are rude, I mean, I’m starting to awaken to this a little
0:36:24 bit. Like you need a little, like Tom way says, uh, I like my Tom little drop of poison. You need some,
0:36:34 like some poison, some, some swearing, some meanness, some bullshit, some like intensity to shake up a
0:36:42 system because when it, uh, sort of converges towards this polite bureaucracy, the atrocities can happen
0:36:48 and hidden away. And what’s probably the most terrifying to me is that that politeness is just
0:36:53 theatrical. Whereas it, it emulates the respect that we would normally give each other in society
0:37:00 if we were healthy and functional. What was the process of writing that song? I mean, it really spoke
0:37:08 to the pain of an anger of millions of people. So there’s magic there. It was a, well, how many,
0:37:14 how many edits, how many like lines did you write? Were there any lines that you were like
0:37:19 tormented by haunted by come back? Should I do it this way or this way or that? Do you, do you have a,
0:37:25 I don’t know. Do you, can you pull tick tock up on this? So if you go to my page, so if you go down
0:37:32 chickens, go, yeah, go down pre Richmond. You can see the original version of Richmond where I put it up.
0:37:37 This is so cool to see the evolution. There it is. Okay. So that’s, that’s, if you play that,
0:37:41 that’s. I have too many unfinished songs. Yeah. Play that, click that and play it.
0:37:48 I’ve been selling my soul. 724. Oh, wow.
0:37:50 Bullshit. Wow.
0:38:00 And if you read through this, it’s so funny. Everybody’s like, you’re about to blow up.
0:38:13 That’s all I had. So I had, I had just that. You should probably finish this one. Might be real
0:38:20 popular. That’s a post from a few days later. That was in, that was in July.
0:38:23 Oh, fuck. That’s so inspiring, man. So that’s what I had.
0:38:30 That’s so inspiring. That’s what, like a couple of weeks before, uh, you posted the final.
0:38:34 Well, that’s all I had. Yeah. That’s all I had written at that point. Like that in my mind,
0:38:38 that’s what, that’s the inspiration for the song was that little bit. And I wrote that just because
0:38:46 I was on job sites all day and, um, you know, going into like all these just terrible places to work,
0:38:50 like dealing with different contractors and stuff. You were talking about wanting to go and talk to blue
0:38:55 collar people and all. It’s like, that’s what I did for work basically for eight years was build
0:38:59 long-term relationships with people in blue collar. I was in the industrial space. So I would talk
0:39:04 sometimes I’d talk to 20 different people a day, you know, when you sit in a job site trailer and talk
0:39:09 to, and talk to a group of dudes, like, and you’re not there with some news camera, you’re just there
0:39:14 as like a random dude. Like you hear so much about what really goes on behind the scenes of, of the
0:39:20 structure of what builds, um, what builds this country and keeps it going. And, um, I think that’s
0:39:25 probably what it was. It was just, uh, it was how I felt, but also how, I guess a lot of other,
0:39:29 like, you know, it was just, I don’t know. It just seemed like the truth. So.
0:39:34 So you jotted down even to the details, like in a notebook, like those words.
0:39:38 No, it’s always just on my phone. I would just keep recording the, I would just keep,
0:39:46 you know, like, so if you were to go back to Tik TOK, like, and look at any of those original videos,
0:39:55 um, so like the songs that ended up charting, let’s say, like the ones that were on there that
0:40:00 charted with Richmond, like this, I’ve got to get sober. So literally, so literally what I did was
0:40:05 this video, I took it my property. This is my carport where my camper was. And, uh,
0:40:13 I took this video, I went to some sketchy virus written MP3 to wave file or MP4 to wave file
0:40:19 transfer thing. I would rip the audio off of this video, put this on Tik TOK and then put that on
0:40:23 distro kid. And that’s the, that was the song. But basically like this would, this would have been the
0:40:28 first time I played. I’ve got to get sober all the way through. Like I would just keep writing it and
0:40:32 working on it and writing it and record myself. And maybe I would record myself 30 times over the
0:40:36 period of like two months. You know what I mean? Oh, but it’s, when you say writing, you mean in
0:40:41 your head, not actually typed out or written. Right. It was just mostly just video over and
0:40:46 over. It’s just videos. I’m just trying to figure out how to make it. Yeah. But that’s what all these,
0:40:52 all these are like the audio file from all these videos is what’s is what ended up on Spotify and all
0:40:56 that. You know what I mean? This is, it’s cool to see these videos before you blew up. So this is a
0:41:03 good song and you’re playing. So what is this at the end? Yeah. Yeah. These were all
0:41:08 don’t sell your soul brother. This is the best music I’ve heard in a long time.
0:41:17 That’s a comment before you blew up. Yeah. Yeah. I think I had about 10,000 followers or something.
0:41:26 What a fucking song. That’s a good one. And you gotta think like this was like, that was my
0:41:31 that was when I quit drinking. You know what I mean? Like, so that
0:41:51 that’s coming from, from, from your heart right there. I just imagine the thousands of people you
0:41:59 helped with that. I don’t know how it’s gonna go. Yeah. But it ain’t gonna happen tonight. So pour
0:42:14 them down strong. Till I drown. And if I wake up tomorrow. When that sun comes back around. I’ll be
0:42:26 wishing I was sober. It’s so crazy how those cicadas and stuff come in. Like, I just felt like it was a
0:42:31 God. I don’t know how to burn. Like, that’s just off my phone. All that stuff’s just there, you know?
0:43:01 That’s a genius of a song. That’s genius, brother. That’s genius.
0:43:03 It’s just crazy to think about.
0:43:13 Yeah. And what’s this one right before? What is this? Oh, yeah. Yeah. So that’s like the private.
0:43:22 And this is a nice recording. Got it. Yeah. So this video got uploaded and then Draven from Radio WV
0:43:29 would have gotten ahold of me in between this and that. He watched this and was like, dude, you got,
0:43:33 he said, we got to record that one. And that like, so I didn’t have it all. I just had whatever was in
0:43:38 that video is all I had written. It was, I think it was just the chorus in the first verse. Draven
0:43:43 saw that video. And said, we got to do this one. Reach out to me to record. And he’s like, yeah,
0:43:48 he’s like, no, we got to do that one. And I was like, dude, that’s all I got. Tell me about that guy.
0:43:53 Draven. He probably is like, you know, he’s probably like my best friend now. We,
0:43:57 we hit it off with this and we’re like, we’re like brothers now, I guess.
0:44:01 Can you talk about like what he’s doing for country, for music in general, for country music,
0:44:07 for discovering talent, for like, I mean, he’s clearly sees something in people.
0:44:12 Yeah. He’s just this, he’s a little bit younger than I am. And he’s, he wrote music and played,
0:44:16 and he’s got some of his, if you look up Draven Rife, he’s going to kill me for even saying this,
0:44:21 but he’s got some pretty, dude, he can, if he was like a pop singer, he would be like,
0:44:28 he can write the most catchy stuff ever. Um, let’s go. Yeah. So click on like, I don’t know,
0:44:32 like, yeah, there you go. All right. That’s him. Yeah.
0:44:41 Where’s this from? Five years ago.
0:44:51 I was feeling on my way. I was 10 years old walking underneath the blanket of West Virginia snow.
0:45:01 Then I walked right by no trespass. I need a grass look green across property line. Bye. Bye. Bye.
0:45:08 You know, he could probably do, if he does like, he could, he could probably be real famous.
0:45:12 Well, he’s got a certain look that dude. We’ll sit there and he’ll just like,
0:45:16 we’ll just be sitting there at like two in the morning and he’ll just all of a sudden do this
0:45:20 little thing. And he’s got like the most amazing first part of this like song or we just started
0:45:25 to co-write together, like in the last few months. So I’m really excited for that. But if you go to
0:45:30 his, this is really funny too. I’m sorry, Draven. I love you, man. So go to videos and go to oldest
0:45:36 first. This is what’s so awesome about Draven. He was originally working for this lady who was trying
0:45:40 to develop different types of hair care products, but he thought the market was too saturated. So he was
0:45:49 going to get into beard oil. So he created Radio WV as like a fake plug page for his burly boy beard
0:45:54 brand he was working with. So like, like if you look at, um, yeah, like that very first video. Yeah.
0:46:00 It’s like, it’s got all his beard products. And if you look, there’s a, there’s multiple ones like
0:46:05 that. So he started it just to do this beard thing with, and then like, I don’t know, he just kind of
0:46:10 felt called to like, keep going with it. And it, and it just sort of naturally progressed.
0:46:15 That too is inspiring. Like you start out one way and then you discover something real special. I mean,
0:46:22 he’s got a, he’s got an eye for how to bring out, I don’t know what it is. Like the, both the audio
0:46:27 side and the video side, how to bring out the best. He says, he just wants it to sound like the way he
0:46:31 likes hearing it, which kind of makes sense. You know, like it’s kind of in the same way talking
0:46:35 about when we were talking about setting the cameras up and a professional would tell you,
0:46:38 you needed three lights. And you’re like, well, I think it would work with the, he’s just kind of
0:46:43 like, well, it’ll just work like this. And do it in a way where he likes it. Yeah. Just do it for
0:46:47 yourself. He does it cause he loves it. And that, and you can see it shows, you know, you can see it
0:46:51 in there. Um, and there’s some good talent. Like you were showing me this new lady, Gabriel. Yeah.
0:46:56 She’s got it, but not a lot of people would, uh, record her doing that song. But he’s like,
0:46:59 I don’t know. It just was different. I just thought people ought to hear it, but he’s man. It was a
0:47:05 blessing that he came along when he did. It was like, um, it really changed both of our lives.
0:47:12 We’ve got to talk about that. So you posted the, the song Richmond North of Richmond on August 8th,
0:47:19 2023. I remember I was at work that day when it went up. Yeah. So it blew the fuck up straight to
0:47:27 number one on the charts, tens of millions of views and listens. Uh, and a few days later on August 17th,
0:47:34 he made a post that I thought was pretty gangster. It was beautiful and gangster. Uh, so one, one of
0:47:40 the things he said is it’s been difficult as I browsed through the 50,000 plus messages and emails I’ve
0:47:45 received in the last week, the stories that have been shared, paint a brutally honest picture,
0:47:51 suicide, addiction, unemployment, anxiety, depression, hopelessness, and the list goes on.
0:47:58 And then you went on to write people in the music industry. Give me blank stares when I brush off
0:48:05 $8 million offers. I don’t want six tour buses, 15 tractor trailers, and a jet. I don’t want to play
0:48:12 stadium shows. I don’t want to be in the spotlight. I wrote the music I wrote because I was suffering with
0:48:17 mental health and depression. These songs have connected with millions of people on such a deep
0:48:25 level because they’ve been sung by someone feeling the words in the very moment they were being sung.
0:48:32 No editing, no agent, no bullshit, just some idiot and his guitar. The style of music that we should
0:48:39 have never gotten away from in the first place. So huge props for that, for walking away from lucrative
0:48:44 multimillion dollar record deals. And I’m sure the money that was just coming your way,
0:48:52 huge props, you know, moments happen where, you know, the world tests you and integrity
0:49:00 is what you do in those moments. So huge props for that. What was your philosophy? What was your
0:49:01 thinking behind that?
0:49:05 It was all those messages I got. I mean, you can see it in the comment sections of a lot of the videos
0:49:11 after everything happened, but people just like felt this spark, like, like, wow, like maybe we
0:49:16 actually have a chance to like, maybe we actually do have some kind of power, you know, like those
0:49:22 people put that song there, nobody else. And like gave me the opportunity to make, even without sign
0:49:27 anything, I was still able to make millions of dollars and have financial freedom. And like, I just,
0:49:36 I just felt like, I felt like if I was going to do anything like that, that I’d be, I’d be betraying,
0:49:42 like I would be taking those people and, and almost betraying them somehow, you know, like, uh,
0:49:49 like they, I hate the big machine just like everybody else. And I, the last thing I’d want to do is be,
0:49:55 is ever supported or be a part of it. Like, I want to watch it crash and burn, you know, like,
0:50:01 see, this is the really important thing is whether it was betrayal or not, we’ll never know,
0:50:06 but you felt like that it was. And to have the integrity to walk away from the bag of money
0:50:13 when you felt that way, that’s fucking epic.
0:50:19 It was also, you got to think a couple of months before this, like, of course I had, you know, I had a wife
0:50:23 and kids that I loved and like, I had a lot of really important things to live for, but I didn’t have a
0:50:29 whole lot to lose. Like, like none of this was even really real. Like it, I didn’t care about that.
0:50:33 Like, I didn’t care to lose this just as quick as I got it. Like this didn’t, this was, this didn’t mean
0:50:39 anything to me. It just meant something to me that like, that I could do something for like, you know,
0:50:45 you, it’s like, even if I’m not smart enough to figure out how to fix some of my own problems in
0:50:49 my life, the fact that I felt like I could help fix somebody else is like, that meant a hell of a lot
0:50:54 more to me than any. That’s what I didn’t want to lose. I didn’t want to lose those people’s trust or
0:51:00 like feel, you know what I mean? Like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And so I’ve just tried to make every decision
0:51:05 around like as best as I can, like what I think the right thing is to do and who knows what the hell the
0:51:10 right thing is to do. But I just try to follow, you know, we all have that little voice in us like
0:51:16 that. We all have some what, and, and I think sometimes we mask, it’s hard for us to listen to
0:51:22 that little voice, whether, whether it’s like, you know, whether it’s our gluttony or our lust or our,
0:51:31 or our, you know, we, we numb ourselves with medications or with alcohol or we, we scroll on
0:51:36 YouTube for four hours a night. And instead of, cause we don’t want to listen to our conscience,
0:51:40 but there is this like very intelligent discerning thing inside of us. It’s able to tell us what’s
0:51:47 right and wrong. And it’s, it’s a spiritual thing, I guess. And I just try to, I just try to listen to
0:51:51 that when I can. I don’t know. I just still feel like I haven’t done enough. I think you, I think you
0:51:58 did a lot. I think you did a lot. I think you’re an inspiration. You’ve helped a huge number of people
0:52:03 and you’re also an inspiration to the other side of it, which is the artists and just to humans to
0:52:12 have integrity. I don’t think people realize how much of a test of integrity, fame, money,
0:52:21 you know, power also is, you know, uh, Rogan and I talk about this quite a bit. We’ll get to see,
0:52:26 I mean, Joe, especially, but I haven’t, I’ve had a bit of the same. You get to
0:52:35 see people become famous and you get to see how they deal with that. And it’s not easy. A lot of
0:52:42 people will sell themselves a bit, sell the soul a bit, give away a bit of their integrity of the
0:52:48 spirit that made them who they are. You get caught up in the wave of it, you know? And so to, to keep
0:52:53 holding onto that, that’s a powerful thing. That’s a really, that’s all I got though. You
0:52:59 know, when you lose that, what the hell are you like? And you see it, like you see these celebrity
0:53:04 people that just like fall off the, they fall off this, you know, they go off the deep end. It’s like,
0:53:10 you got to have, you have to have something in your life to, and to keep you centered and to keep you,
0:53:15 um, you know, your whole perception of reality and like your just existence in reality as all
0:53:21 contention upon this sort of like the center that you exist in. And you have to, if you don’t have
0:53:25 that, then you’re just flying through space, through space. I mean, we’re all just riding on this rock
0:53:32 that’s going, who knows how fast. You said something, uh, I think to Jocko that I really liked
0:53:36 everything that has purpose behind it comes with risk.
0:53:41 So there in that moment, I mean, you’re taking a hell of a risk.
0:53:46 I was terrified. I talked about this a little bit with him too, but I was terrified to even put the
0:53:50 song out. Like I knew I was going to be the subject of scrutiny and judgment. And I knew people were
0:53:55 going to like, you know, I kind of knew all that was going to happen. I was like going back to that,
0:54:02 talking about crowds, like to stand in front of thousands of people and everybody be in some sense
0:54:09 unity. Like a lot of times when I end the shows, I’ll always, I’ll always end with this statement
0:54:16 that just says, you know, no matter what, like no matter how you feel when you go online, you know,
0:54:23 everyone feels so small and insignificant and, and powerless. But I just say, no matter how they make
0:54:28 you feel online or when you turn on the TV or when you look at polling numbers or whatever, like when you
0:54:36 just look at all this trash that we digest every day, like you’re, there’s always, there will always be
0:54:42 more of us than them and, and all that. And, but like to see the, like, just to see the light in people’s
0:54:48 eyes when you say that, but the truth is like, and it’s like, who is us and who is them? And it’s like, us just
0:54:57 represents humanity and like, and, and all the things we talked about so far, like just, you know, the fire and the
0:55:03 chaos and, but also the, like the love and just, just life. Life is just such a crazy, complicated, beautiful,
0:55:11 disastrous thing. And then them is like, it is, it’s the power structure. It’s the, it’s that same terrible side of us
0:55:18 that created things like the Soviet union and, and, and is ultimately what’s created this monster, this like monster
0:55:23 that we all live under today, which now is not just, doesn’t just exist within the confines of the Soviet union, but
0:55:31 seems to almost be a global epidemic. And then that song became the rebel call against that,
0:55:36 against the power structures that creates that. Yeah. It’s like, how much fire am I willing to play
0:55:41 with? Cause I know at some point I am going to get burned from it. I just pray a lot that God,
0:55:46 I don’t have a lot of self-worth in myself anyway. So I don’t really care what they say or do to me,
0:55:52 or I don’t care. Like, I don’t even care if I die, whatever, just don’t let, just, just protect the
0:55:57 people I love is all, that’s all I ask of God. I have this dream of just creating this parallel
0:56:02 system that sits beside all of these stupid systems that we live under that are all sort of engulfed in
0:56:08 this, this thing that we talked about at the beginning, this, this type of structure, you know,
0:56:14 we’re none of us where we’re all just robots. And it’s like, if we hate, you know, if we hate the
0:56:19 way music is and all these artists are complaining about the way the venues are monopolized and the
0:56:23 ticket sales are monopolized and let’s just go find other places to play music. Cause there’s so many
0:56:28 people hungry for music and places that don’t ever get it. And if you look at it, there’s so many
0:56:33 passionate people that are fighting all these different causes, like, like just in food, it’s the
0:56:38 word they use for bait for more or less starvation. It’s a more polite, it’s called food insecurity.
0:56:42 But if you look up just in Virginia, just where I live in Virginia, in the rural areas, how much food
0:56:50 insecurity there is and how many empty vacant farms there are. It’s like, this is an obvious problem
0:56:54 that we should be on Twitter talking about nonstop. Like, this is like, everyone has to eat, you know,
0:56:59 it don’t matter what you vote for or what, like what you look like or any of that crap you can,
0:57:07 you know, like, so like, let’s just like, why, why are we living in a country where we have, why are we
0:57:12 living in a country where half of us are obese and eating shit food and don’t know any better? And then
0:57:16 the other half of us don’t have like how just, it’s just, it’s lack of leadership that’s caused
0:57:22 dysfunction. And so if we’re tired of that, then, then let’s just fix it. Like, we don’t need anybody’s
0:57:26 permission. Like, that’s the whole beauty. Like, that’s the whole beauty of what America is, is like,
0:57:31 we don’t, we don’t need some greasy haired corporate schmuck to give us permission to go
0:57:35 fix all these things that are wrong. Let’s just go do it. And if they don’t like it, fuck them,
0:57:44 you know, in all domains of life from, from food to the music industry, honestly, to education,
0:57:54 also to government itself, all of it. And that, you know, your music is also just the soundtrack to
0:58:03 that spirit that makes America great of just constantly trying to revitalize itself. When the
0:58:08 bullshit piles up a little too high, there’s that revolutionary spirit that says like, we need to
0:58:13 fix this shit. And, and that inspiration that created this country was from years of people
0:58:18 living under tyranny. Like we forget the story of the people who really created this country. Like,
0:58:23 it’s funny. I, one of the statements I made at the very beginning, they got taken way out of context,
0:58:28 but I wasn’t in a position to like, even begin to have a conversation about, as I made this comment
0:58:34 early on at one of the shows about, about how, about how our diversity is a strength. But that term
0:58:38 has been hijacked now to mean something a lot different than what it really means. But it’s
0:58:42 like, think about how many different people came together just at the founding of this country. Like
0:58:47 people who spoke different languages, different cultures, religions, ways of thinking, so many
0:58:51 different people came together to even create this place now. And like, we’ve just forgotten about all
0:58:57 that. They didn’t all come here because they wanted to ride on some miserable boat ride and risk their
0:59:01 whole lives to go to live in some crazy jungle, essentially. They had no structure, like no
0:59:07 infrastructure, no medicine, no, like they didn’t come here for like some glorified camping trip. It’s
0:59:12 because they were tired of like generations of being persecuted and living under tyranny and not
0:59:16 being allowed to practice there. You know, it’s not like they wanted freedom of religion and they didn’t
0:59:19 want separation of church and state because they were a bunch of goody two shoes and they love going to
0:59:23 church every Sunday. It’s because they weren’t allowed to believe in what they believed in because
0:59:27 some asshole King or some hierarchy told them they couldn’t and they were just tired of it.
0:59:31 That’s what we’re losing now. It’s like, we’ve forgotten that we’re those people like the same
0:59:37 structures that have plagued this country are their multinational corporations and their, and it’s just
0:59:41 the ideology behind them and their, and their structure is what the problem is.
0:59:50 Yeah. I mean, it’s a multinational corporations, it’s nation states that, uh, are deeply corrupt and are
0:59:59 authoritarian and ultimately abused power and yes, create, uh, elements of tyranny. And from that,
1:00:08 the, the human spirit rises, uh, like I said, with, with, with songs like the ones you write or at the
1:00:14 founding in this country, you know, that’s why all this diverse outcasts come together and write
1:00:23 something as crazy as all men are created equal. What a gangster line. I guess not an easy thing to take
1:00:29 a lot of that stuff for granted now, but that’s not an easy thing to come up with. That’s a really gutsy
1:00:39 thing to, to see, to see the value in all people equally. And of course they also were, uh, suffering from
1:00:48 delusion, you know, they didn’t see black people as equal. They didn’t see women as equal, but even that
1:00:53 first leap of like all men are created equal, that’s like a gigantic fuck you to the past.
1:00:59 Taking that leap forward really took a lot in an age and a time when, when it probably sounded
1:01:03 correct. And it’s not like they just made a statement and put it on Twitter. Like they,
1:01:10 they like, think about how much, just think about the insanity. Like I can’t even conceptualize the
1:01:16 insanity of what took place from the time that like, even from the revolutionary war until now to try to
1:01:21 preserve that idea, you know, so like so much has happened and so much sacrifice has been made in just
1:01:27 so many hours of labor and thought and intensity. Even in the 20th century has got two world wars.
1:01:33 And, uh, you know, especially in the second world war, the United States played a very crucial role
1:01:40 and there was a lot of ideological, like battle of ideas going on at that time of the role of war
1:01:49 and peace of the role of the United States as the, um, as the center place for the ideal of human freedom
1:01:56 and human rights. Yeah. We continue to innovate. So I’d love to get back to talking to blue collar
1:02:01 people. You mentioned, um, those are some of my favorite people. So it was actually really cool to
1:02:09 find out that for many years of your life, basically the way you made a living is talking to blue collar
1:02:15 people and getting their story. So I’m traveling across the world for a bit, but of course the world
1:02:23 that I love the most and I’m most curious about is the different subcultures and towns of the United
1:02:31 States. So I, I took a road trip across the U S in my early twenties for, for several months. And that was like
1:02:40 a transformative experience for me. And that’s something, um, one of the luxuries I have is to, to, to have the
1:02:46 freedom to do whatever the hell I want now. And so, uh, I want to take a road trip across the United States for
1:02:53 several months. And one of the things I wanted to do is to just, to, to talk to, to people in, in small
1:03:00 towns and middle America. I don’t know what words to put on it, but to talk to the very people that you
1:03:11 talked about that, that, uh, you know, construction workers, plumbers, waitresses, oil rig workers, just
1:03:21 people that do something real people that are real, that don’t make much money that struggle,
1:03:29 but have a, as you talked about, have like a richness to them. That’s not often revealed. That’s not often
1:03:35 talked about. So maybe can you speak to that, to your, to your time with blue collar folk?
1:03:40 When I got all those messages at the, we were talking about early on, earlier in this, like so
1:03:46 many of them. And even now it’s even since I, even like in the last couple of days, I’ve gotten some
1:03:53 where they start with, Hey, I’m a nobody, but like, that’s how a lot of those start, you know, like the
1:03:58 nobodies of the world, if you want to call them like that’s, it’s, it’s frustrating that the people who
1:04:08 literally have, have, have built and preserve and maintain the structure of society that we all
1:04:14 comfortably live in, those people have the least amount of representation. They’re ignored just
1:04:20 because of the way the social hierarchy exists, but the, some of the most dimwitted, irrelevant,
1:04:28 terrible people are put here and are idolized and spotlighted and they’re all over television and
1:04:33 they’re all over the internet. And we act like they’re, like they’re Kings and Queens and like
1:04:40 that they’re royalty. And then all these people who do jobs that most of us will be too tariff, either,
1:04:48 either wouldn’t have the, even the ability to do, we’d be like, like how many people are going to go
1:04:53 underwater and weld. But if we didn’t have underwater welders, like one of my best friends,
1:04:57 whose name is also Jocko, funny enough, the dude worked 70, 80 hours every week. He’s on the
1:05:04 Chesapeake Bay, uh, tunnel job now, but the dude’s gotten up on, gotten on heights that I couldn’t get
1:05:09 on. He’s went, he’s went underground places. I wouldn’t go. And nobody will ever know, like nobody
1:05:14 even knows those people’s stories or what they went through or like the kind of lives they lived in.
1:05:18 And, and they’re the, they’re like the, the people who create the fabric of society and
1:05:23 even the waitresses and the waiters and like all these factory jobs that I worked in, all those
1:05:27 people, like the talk about the craziest place I ever worked. And the craziest people ever met was
1:05:32 this little place called perfect air and Marion, North Carolina. And it was this commercial air
1:05:36 conditioning factory, which is I think closed now, but they didn’t pay very well. And so everyone they
1:05:43 hired was either people that had criminal backgrounds who couldn’t get jobs elsewhere or idiots who dropped out of
1:05:48 and couldn’t work elsewhere like me. And so I was 18 years old working in this place with people who
1:05:53 are mostly in their fifties and sixties, but you want to talk about being exposed to just a whole
1:05:58 nother world of people, like, and just the stories and the, just those people are far more interesting
1:06:03 than, than many of the people that we consider to be celebrities. Like most people who are celebrities
1:06:07 are just pretty boring and airheaded and don’t really even know what real life is about. They’re pretty
1:06:11 unrelatable to the rest of the world. And so it would be really cool. I mean, that’s the whole reason
1:06:14 that I want to go out and do these shows in places that haven’t had music in them in 10 years,
1:06:19 because those people like that is America to me, you know, how many people in Pittsburgh have been
1:06:24 an hour outside of Pittsburgh. And even in Virginia, if you lived in Northern Virginia and you drive two
1:06:29 and a half hours Southwest, you’re in a whole nother planet, like the people, the accents, the culture.
1:06:35 And so I feel driven in the same way. Like I would love to, I would love to find a way to,
1:06:41 to try to bridge that cultural gap, to make those people relevant and to make, because they are like
1:06:45 some of the most, and like, and it’s funny because we emulate a lot of those people, like, you know,
1:06:51 modern country music is a bunch of people emulating those people, you know?
1:06:58 And there’s also like, uh, I love people that have a skill and become masters of that skill also.
1:07:05 So that element is also there, even if it’s like insanely difficult work, like being a minor, like there’s
1:07:11 skill to that. There’s stories there. There’s like what it takes to do that. So, I mean, some of my
1:07:17 favorite humans are engineers and all they do is solve really hard problems. So they develop, I mean,
1:07:19 it’s a pain in the ass job. Yeah.
1:07:26 Anything in the factories is extremely difficult, but that you learn so much about what it takes to solve
1:07:34 intricate, like nuanced problems in the physical world. So coal mining, oil rigs, like you mentioned,
1:07:39 welding, that’s a fascinating line of work. And, and those are trades that are in many cases dying
1:07:45 because we don’t, because they aren’t popular in culture anymore for everything from agricultural to
1:07:50 plumbing and electrical. It’s like, those are all areas. I think if you were to go out and talk to some
1:07:56 of those people and shed light on it, it would like, you could change the, you could change the
1:08:01 entire landscape in America of how, of how it’s perceived and like, and make it cool, you know?
1:08:06 Yeah. So thank you for what you’re doing on that front. I want to say, I wrote it down. Please,
1:08:12 if you know people that would be willing to talk, reach out to me. A good way to do that is
1:08:14 lexfriedman.com slash contact.
1:08:19 This was another one of the things early on that I had an idea about, and I thought was getting done and
1:08:26 it wasn’t that I, I’ve got to go back and try to figure out is doing prison shows and, uh, doing
1:08:33 rehab shows and all that. But I am really intrigued with like going into those places and trying to
1:08:41 immerse myself and just the, the mental state that those people are in. And like, it’s not talked about
1:08:49 a whole lot, but also people who get out ex-convicts. I mean, that, that’s a hard life. That’s just a
1:08:51 hard life to try to reintegrate back into society.
1:08:57 Yeah. And a lot of those people at Perfect Air that I worked with, they almost all were in some
1:09:02 form of legal trouble. Like there was a lady that worked on the assembly line, Maasai, me named Denise
1:09:08 and, uh, her and her husband had been manufacturing methamphetamine and he took the fall for most of it.
1:09:13 She only had to go on probation. He was still in prison, but man, like Denise was a very sweet lady.
1:09:19 And like, aside from the meth manufacturing, like she was like great, you know, like, and just such a
1:09:24 character, like in such a good way. And so it’s like, yeah, just Denise lexfreeman.com.
1:09:34 Let’s talk. I mean, yeah, you know, like both, both sort of the plumbers and the coal miners and, uh,
1:09:43 Denise with the old meth habits. I mean, they’re walking the line of like, you know, surviving is
1:09:51 hard. Yeah. So you have to do a real hard job. And then you also have to live life, which is in
1:10:00 general hard, you know, divorce kids, people die, you lose like the medical issues and that, that can
1:10:06 destroy you completely. All of a sudden something happens. You can’t afford it. The, the, the insurance
1:10:13 system destroys people, all of that. So you have to somehow navigate life while working your ass off
1:10:20 and a real hard job. And those people, they have stories. That’s a real pain. And from that pain,
1:10:27 from that anger, that’s where, uh, Richmond, North of Richmond, that was that, that you could just feel
1:10:34 their pain come through with that song and with your other work. So that like, there is a landscape of
1:10:41 suffering. Yeah. It doesn’t have to be that. We don’t all have to be that decentralized either.
1:10:45 Like if all, if there is that much commonality among people, which I do believe there is
1:10:52 like just innately in suffering and, and, and, and yeah, like there’s a guy, there’s a guy in West
1:10:57 Virginia that I talked to that he’s got a piece of property beside a mine that he was interested in
1:11:03 selling. But the reason he’s, he’s got this dream of opening a, um, like putting some cabins there and
1:11:07 renting them out for people to come Airbnb. He works at Lowe’s full time, but he’s, his son’s got this,
1:11:12 his son’s like 19 and has got this heart surgery he’s got to have. And so he’s trying to sell the
1:11:17 place for that. And just like, just that guy and all, and all you’d ever see him as is the guy that
1:11:23 works at Lowe’s like pulling lumber or whatever, but he’s got this very insanely complex life.
1:11:26 He’s trying to manage. He doesn’t want to lose his son. Like he’s just going to sell everything.
1:11:31 And like at one point in time, maybe the church served that role of like when people really fell
1:11:35 off track and they didn’t have a support system and they were like on this tiny boat out in the ocean,
1:11:39 and they figured out some kind of way to rally it. In my mind, that’s like the dream of all this.
1:11:45 If I, if I die and there’s any like legacy left or anything done, it’s like finding a way to take
1:11:50 all the people that fill that role and organizing them and empowering them and protecting them.
1:11:54 It’s rebuilding the community, but in a real way, not in like this fairytale bullshit.
1:11:58 Everybody’s going to love each other and we’re all just going to be one big happy family. Like
1:12:01 everybody’s still going to get mad and hate each other in certain ways. And
1:12:06 that’s good. Like we, we need those tornadoes. Like you said, we need people pissed off and angry
1:12:11 and we need people to feel like they can be angry and open about things that are wrong. Like people
1:12:14 should be able to speak their mind and we shouldn’t all just kiss each other’s ass. And we shouldn’t
1:12:19 all just pretend to be overly polite and say, Hey Debbie, you have a good weekend. Like you said,
1:12:24 like we need all this controversy and this turmoil. And like, we need the hell of what that side that,
1:12:28 that the internet brings out in people, but it just needs to be in real life. And it needs to be in a way
1:12:33 where we’re all like, we all are at least chasing the same common goal, which is probably that we
1:12:38 don’t want to starve and we want to have decent health. And, and we want to be able to like provide
1:12:42 a decent life for our kids, or at least we just don’t, you know, we just want to live a decent life.
1:12:51 Like, um, I think it’s somehow that, that fixes like, that fixes what you describe, like the people
1:12:56 who, who fall in despair and are isolated and get it, it’s a terrifying world to live in.
1:13:00 It’s that principle. Again, this is, I need a phone, a friend thing where we can just keep calling
1:13:05 Jordan for all these things. But like he explains, there’s this principle in the Bible about, about
1:13:09 those who, about the more you have, the more you’ll receive. And the less you have, the less you’ll,
1:13:14 the less you’ll receive kind of a thing. And it’s a, it’s just a universal law in society where
1:13:19 it seems like the lower you get to the bottom, it’s almost like the more, like the less resources you
1:13:24 have available and the less, the less friends you have. And it’s like, you just, the, the further
1:13:29 you go snowballs into where it’s like people just hit rock bottom. And then, and then what it’s like,
1:13:33 when you get out of prison, what do you, what are you supposed to do? Or when you’re a veteran with
1:13:37 mental health, like, what are you supposed to do? Like, in my mind, that’s what the church is supposed
1:13:42 to be there for is like, but obviously it doesn’t fill that role anymore.
1:13:50 To some people, at least religion does a little bit. It gives, uh, it’s at least a foundation of
1:13:56 community, a foundation of hope for people. And when they’re really struggling.
1:14:03 Yeah. You got thousands of messages, like you talked about from people, you gotten to talk
1:14:08 to thousands of people about their pain through your work, through your music. You’ve been an
1:14:14 inspiration to those people to find a way out of the pain. Can you tell the full story of your own
1:14:24 lowest point before, before all of this, before the, before the music, before you blew up, uh,
1:14:32 can you take me through the story of the depression, the drinking, and just the roughest times in your
1:14:39 life? It’s sometimes it’s not even, you know, it’s funny, but it’s almost not even where you’re at in
1:14:44 life. It’s where you perceive yourself at in life and what your, what your goals are moving forward.
1:14:51 And I think like, you know, I was, I dropped out of high school at 17, basically ran away from
1:14:56 home. I just, I couldn’t, I have always had this authority problem. And so I just didn’t want to
1:15:01 listen to my parents. I didn’t want to go to college. I just wanted to go moving to the mountains.
1:15:06 I was running away from responsibility, I guess, is what I was doing, you know? And so got this girl
1:15:13 pregnant, had my first kid when I was 18 or just about to turn 19. And like I said, I’m working in an air
1:15:18 conditioning factory with a bunch of convicted felons. And so from there, everything was just
1:15:22 reactionary. I never really had a plan. I would jump from job to job, just like most everybody else.
1:15:27 I don’t know. I just, I just got to a point where I guess I just quit believing in myself. And I knew
1:15:33 that I wasn’t doing, I just knew I wasn’t doing, I wasn’t feeling my purpose and I wasn’t being the
1:15:38 best version of myself I could be. And so the alternative to like facing yourself in the mirror and accepting
1:15:45 that, that I’m not a shitty person. I’ve just let myself fall. You know, it’s like, it’s so hard to
1:15:52 accept when you’ve had that fall that it’s just easier to just, just to get drunk and, you know,
1:15:58 just do the bare minimum you can to keep everything sort of kind of moving along. But you don’t really
1:16:01 care if you live or die. You don’t, you don’t really care about much anything like your whole,
1:16:05 you know, I don’t know. Life is just so beautiful when you’re a child, you’re so imaginative and
1:16:09 exploratory and you’re learning all these things and you just, you just can’t wait to be an adult
1:16:15 because you’re just going to go out and do all these incredible, you know, and then you face the
1:16:20 reality of it. Yeah. And the pressure and the fear of failure. Like I think maybe even my own fear of
1:16:25 failure is what drew is what drove me. And, uh, but yeah, you just, and you, you think negatively
1:16:30 about yourself for so many days and weeks and months and you like, you don’t even have a real
1:16:35 self-awareness of like what you’re doing or how destructive you’ve become, but you always have
1:16:42 that, that discernment in you that like, that conscious, you know, that little voice in your,
1:16:48 and your spirit that is letting you know you’re messing up. You know, I was almost like, you know,
1:16:53 I was wrestling with myself, you know? And so I don’t know. I just got to a point where it was just
1:17:05 like, yeah, just, just a very, just a very overwhelming sense of numbness. Like, like,
1:17:10 I don’t like nothing really, nothing that mattered before really matters anymore. Like, I guess
1:17:14 that’s, that’s probably to me, the definition of depression is when all the things you love and
1:17:20 care about are just meaningless and you can’t find, you really can’t find meaning or purpose
1:17:29 or excitement in anything, you know? Like, like, I think, especially with men that commit suicide,
1:17:36 it’s a, it’s a prolonged period of that. It’s not like they just wake up one day and they have a
1:17:41 bad day and they kill themselves. It’s like you self-reflect negatively about yourself and your
1:17:45 life and you don’t do the things that you’re supposed to do every day for a long enough period of time.
1:17:54 And it’s like, pretty soon you’ve built this whole mountain of, of, of, of mismanaged,
1:18:01 neglected stuff, for lack of a better word, like this mountain that you have to climb back up in
1:18:06 order to fix all these things that you should have been doing all along. And then the, and then on
1:18:10 the other side of it, it’s like, well, I could just die. Like, that seems a lot, like, it’s almost
1:18:15 like for, I think from a man’s perspective, maybe the friends that I’ve had that I’ve lost,
1:18:20 it seems like a lot of times you think, you know, you’d never see it coming, you know? Like, I don’t
1:18:24 know, maybe that’s a general thing with, it seems like a lot of times men mask that better and you
1:18:31 don’t pick up on it as much. But, um, I think it’s like, you just dig yourself into a point to where
1:18:36 it’s like, you have a mountain of responsibility in front of you that you haven’t faced that you
1:18:41 don’t know how to face. And you ha you haven’t been able to do so for a long time, but there’s
1:18:47 this really easy detour and it’s just, you know, putting your big toe on the trigger. And it’s like,
1:18:50 which one of those are, I don’t know, like they’re both seen, but at that point, your,
1:18:58 your perception of reality is so distorted that like, you don’t, all the things that can,
1:19:04 that would normally compel you to, to move along, like your, like love and joy and like your,
1:19:11 your draw, you know, your drive to, to be that none of that really, it’s not there for you to even
1:19:16 contemplate. If that makes sense. It’s like that part is almost like, at least for a little while
1:19:24 invisible and all you see is fear and responsibility. And just this, like I said, I just, I just envision
1:19:28 it like a mountain that you don’t, you don’t really know if you’re even able to climb. And then the other
1:19:36 option is just, so I, I think that’s probably where, that’s probably where a lot of people go. And that’s
1:19:42 probably where I was, was just like, you know? Yeah. I mean, there is the, it’s not just
1:19:49 responsibilities to the immensity of it, the mountain. And I think you’re accurately describing
1:19:54 how it happens, which is gradually. Yeah. Seeing yourself in a negative light over time
1:20:05 slowly suffocates you. And then the burden of the responsibility that piles up. And unfortunately,
1:20:13 of course, one of the ways out is to pull the trigger. And the other way out is the Jordan
1:20:21 Peterson back to Jordan, sort of one gradual step at a time, like make your bed. It’s like,
1:20:27 start climbing out. Like the responsibilities before you, one at a time, every single day,
1:20:31 just climbing out and have faith that it will work out.
1:20:37 That was what was so powerful for me about just beginning to open my mind back up to reading just
1:20:41 a little bit of stuff, like a little bit of stuff from the new Testament that Jesus said and some
1:20:48 different perspectives and teachings. But like, you know, an apostle would be in prison, like basically
1:20:54 being tortured and facing death, but like just overjoyed in writing about talking about, it’s all
1:20:58 about your perspective of things. Like I said, like, that’s why I never could understand why,
1:21:04 you know, like celebrities or professional, I mean, giving one example of many, like a Kurt Cobain
1:21:10 type scenario where you have a guy that’s just immensely talented, just will always be loved by plenty of
1:21:13 people. Like I never could understand why that guy.
1:21:22 There’s a ocean of quiet suffering in, uh, in a lot of, and I think it is disproportionately in men,
1:21:28 in a lot of men and they hide it. Well, that’s why blue collar workers have such a high suicide rate
1:21:33 and all to, and why it is so important to talk to those people. And yeah, it’s a, no, you could see
1:21:40 it in the eyes and there, there, there is, there, there is a lot of pain there without like trying to
1:21:45 get, without like trying to open up too many doors. I think that’s probably the best way I would describe
1:21:52 it is just a series of really, there’s a series of negligent decisions and also just misperceptions.
1:21:57 You know, like I think this was an Andrew Huberman thing where he talks about medications and how
1:22:05 it’s a lot more likely for somebody to keep their dog on their medication schedule, but not themselves.
1:22:11 You know, you love your dog and your dog, like it’s just this great little thing. And you just, you don’t see
1:22:19 the flaws and the faults and the sin and the disgust in your dog that you do yourself. So it’s much more
1:22:23 likely for people to make sure their dog has their medication every day. But like, there’s this alarming
1:22:29 statistic with just the amount of people that don’t even fill their prescriptions they need filled or take care of
1:22:33 themselves the way they do. And, and then that also like over time, you know, like if you quit
1:22:39 taking care of yourself and you’re not in good health and you’re, and you’re, you’re not in a good
1:22:45 routine, you’re not doing, you’re not like a series, a long series of doing enough of those things. Like
1:22:49 you do, it’s easier for you to just think that your self-worth is zero. Cause if you’re not even
1:22:55 willing to like, if you’re not even willing to like have basic hygiene and, and eat decent food and try to
1:23:01 take care of yourself, it’s like, why, how, like, how on earth are you going to go face all these
1:23:05 things that you need to face to get your life better? If you can’t, you don’t even care enough
1:23:10 to do that. It’s just like, Hey, but it is, it’s a, it’s a, it’s a, it’s a long tragic road to get to
1:23:15 that point. I think, at least in my case, the idea that there was something bigger than me that loved
1:23:20 me, even despite I had all these flaws and problems and just that I was just such a wretched person.
1:23:25 That’s what, at least in my situation, that’s what I think helped put, you know,
1:23:29 more than anything. Like I said, that’s certainly where the motivation to quit the,
1:23:34 once I quit the drinking, it helped a lot. Cause I was able to, even though it was a pain,
1:23:38 it was difficult. I was able to actually be able to be honest with myself and reflect on a lot of
1:23:42 things that were, and you know, you got to think, like I said, I, we watched the, I mean, it was like
1:23:46 with, of course, in my case, it was a little unfair of an example. Cause within a month, all this stuff
1:23:53 happened, like after I quit, but you know, um, I see it in my friends that have quit and have tried
1:23:57 to turn things around and it, you know, it’s like, it’s, it’s, it is the most beautiful thing in the
1:24:03 world to see somebody like come to life again, after being in one of those, you’re able to like,
1:24:08 sort of like escape this shell of, of all those terrible things. And even if you are still in a
1:24:12 bad position and you’re still, you got 30 grand worth of credit card debt and you’re working some
1:24:17 shit job and your car doesn’t start half the time. And like, you know, your girlfriend left you for
1:24:22 some other dude and like, don’t matter what it is. Like if at least that little glimmer of hope that
1:24:28 like that faith that there is a chance, it’s something greater. Like that can, that’ll push
1:24:32 people. You can put, you can push, you can push them out on the side with that, you know, like you
1:24:37 can do anything with that. And I think it’s also good. I think it is important to have a good
1:24:40 support structure. Like when you get to that point, I don’t think you should, I don’t think
1:24:45 anybody should have to face that stuff by themselves. And there’s plenty of other people
1:24:49 out there that are in the same position. And I think that’s, again, I think that’s why it’s so
1:24:54 important for us to try to get reconnected on a personal level and not just through digital
1:24:58 communication, because like we don’t really, we don’t, all we see of each other online is the good
1:25:04 stuff. Very rarely are people posting on Facebook talking about, you know, how could you even,
1:25:08 it’s like, all you see is the best of people, but I don’t think we realize that we’re all going
1:25:11 through a lot of the same things anyway, you know, the low points and stuff.
1:25:16 Guess what happens when you either lose your job or can’t quite figure out a good job and you’re
1:25:22 not making that much money or you’re basically broke and you have a girlfriend that’s not happy
1:25:28 about you being broke. She’s going to leave you. And if it’s a wife that could face divorce and like
1:25:34 the, um, breakups and divorce can break a lot of people, even when they’re doing well.
1:25:41 And now when they’re not doing well, that’s a rough one. And that basically your support system
1:25:46 for a lot of people is the relationship is the, what is the wife and the, and so like that’s taken
1:25:52 the support system from underneath you. And I’ve had good friends of mine. I’ve seen get in destructive
1:25:56 relationships and like, they’ll start to date a girl. And then like within a year, they’re just
1:26:02 like a shell of what they were. Because sometimes I do think it’s, I do think you have to be careful
1:26:06 with like your self validation and the way you perceive yourself and making sure that it’s you
1:26:11 giving yourself that and not somebody else. Cause I do think too, it’s like, yeah, like you’re,
1:26:17 you know, how are you supposed to, if you can’t even, if you can’t even keep a woman around to love
1:26:21 you, right? Like, how are you supposed to love yourself? It’s easy to think about that. Like
1:26:25 I’ve seen a lot of men get wrecked in bad relationships and stuff too. That’s it’s a, it’s tough,
1:26:32 you know? Yeah. Ultimately I think maybe dark to say, but there is, there is a base layer at which
1:26:41 we’re, we’re alone in this world. Like you need to be strong by yourself first and foremost,
1:26:47 sometimes there’ll be times in life where everybody leaves you. Yeah. The wife leaves
1:26:53 you, the job leaves you. And for some people might even people you thought are friends will backstab
1:27:00 you. And even then you have to have the strength to find your footing again. Like that, that ultimately
1:27:05 comes from you. Right. I mean, man, of course, like I said, in all the experiences I’ve been through,
1:27:11 just, I can’t, I’d be a fool to deny it. But like, I do think there is God there that’s always there if
1:27:16 you’re, but you certainly can self-isolate yourself too, even from that. If you can find faith in
1:27:24 yourself, I’ve seen it do wonderful things for human beings. You and God, faith in something bigger than
1:27:32 you. Yeah. That can give strength to a lot of people, but, uh, allowing yourself to derive strength
1:27:40 solely from other people can be a dangerous thing because people are complicated and they can betray,
1:27:47 they can, um, just like they can fill your life with love. They could also destroy you.
1:27:53 That’s also the beautiful thing about life. Yeah, it is. You make yourself vulnerable to other people,
1:28:01 you form deep relationships. That means they can also destroy you. So that’s life.
1:28:06 Beth, that’s what makes this whole thing. That’s what, and then you write really great heartbreak
1:28:13 songs. Yeah. You know, people, you know, there’s something valuable about people fucking you over and,
1:28:21 and hardship and all that kind of stuff. Even the best of us have terrible parts of us. Like we are all
1:28:31 flawed inherently because we’re human. And so there, there’ll never be a, there’ll never be another garden
1:28:36 of Eden on earth. Like figuratively where, where we all just live harmoniously and everything’s great
1:28:41 and happy and wonderful, but it is, it’s those basic principles that you talk about, like love and our,
1:28:44 and those relationships and those connections that we have, they, they make it all. Cause the thing about,
1:28:48 I mean, like in a lot of cases, it’s like, what even, that’s the position you get in when you get to,
1:28:52 when you get so depressed and you get so low, it’s like, what’s the point in even doing all this?
1:28:58 Like it is, it is just for anyone. It’s just so crazy, overly complicated and exhausting to live.
1:29:04 Isn’t it like, even in this modern society where we have all these wonderful little conveniences and we
1:29:08 can just have food delivered right to our door if we want and all this kind of crap. It’s like,
1:29:14 people are still like more depressed now than they’ve ever been. And like all the mental anxiety and all
1:29:21 the mental health stuff is just probably just as prevalent as it’s ever been. It’s, it’s people talk
1:29:26 about money, not making you happy. And you know, it’s like easy when you’re, it’s easy when you’re broke
1:29:30 to think, man, if I had some money, I’ve, and of course, financial freedom is what you’re really
1:29:34 looking for. Not like an abundance of wealth, but the things that we talk about that make life worth
1:29:38 living, aren’t things that you can buy. They are things that you obtain through relationships and love
1:29:49 and life. And so it’s a, it is just an infinitely complex and crazy thing to think about, but it’s
1:29:58 like, uh, that human component of us is what, is what we, is what’s so important to our, to our long-term
1:30:04 existence, like our, our ability to, to have connection with each other. And the joy we find in that,
1:30:10 the purpose we find in that is it’s not, it’s not anything that’s replaceable by with anything,
1:30:18 you know? Yeah. I’ve seen that with, uh, just seeing the effects of war on the people and
1:30:27 basically war strips away everything. You lose your home, you, you lose everything and, uh, you get to
1:30:32 see what’s actually really important. And that’s the other people in your life, uh, friends, family.
1:30:40 And it’s almost cliche to say, but it’s, uh, it’s the people you love in your life that make up
1:30:48 the essence of what makes life worth living. It’s not the homes, the material possessions, the,
1:30:56 even the job and whatever else it’s the, the, the humans. So, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It’s important to
1:31:01 remember a lot of us, especially in the United States under a capital system or chasing money.
1:31:08 Yeah. It’s important to remember what you’re doing it all for. I got to talk to you about your, um,
1:31:16 your writing process. You’ve written just a bunch of really incredible songs. You say you’re not good at,
1:31:21 you’re not a good musician, which is hilarious. Dude, I have no, so I have like zero self-confidence
1:31:26 about any, I mean, just about anything, but I just, when I say that I’m not being funny. Like I’m like,
1:31:35 you get nervous when you like get on stage. Oh yeah. Yeah. Like I can think about shows coming up
1:31:41 and my hands will sweat thinking about them. Yeah. You told me that you like, haven’t really played
1:31:46 the songs for like a couple months, like old songs. Since September. Yeah. Since September.
1:31:53 Well, dude, like think about how, like, you know, I can’t, I’m not going to sit around and play. I’ve
1:32:00 got to get sober for fun. Like, and like, you know. So you feel, you feel the songs when you play them.
1:32:07 Yeah. Yeah, man. That’s rough. That’s, that’s rough. A lot of musicians talk about that kind
1:32:11 of thing there. Right. Like about this. I don’t know. I’ve heard about that with people like about
1:32:18 hating to play songs because of that side of it, but. Well, yeah, I’ve, um, uh, become close
1:32:23 friends with, uh, Dan Reynolds, who’s, uh, the lead singer for Imagine Dragons. Yeah. And he says,
1:32:27 every time he performs a song, I mean, he has songs that have depression in them and all that kind of
1:32:34 stuff. And he says like, the only real way to do it is to feel it. You, you, you have to, you can’t
1:32:40 just fake it. You have to like be in it. You have to like really feel the song as if you’re singing it,
1:32:46 as if you’re writing it for the first time. So as a performer that, that he says that that’s his duty.
1:32:53 He has to, to the, to the audience, but then that takes a toll. That’s not easy to do. That’s like,
1:32:58 that, uh, especially with the songs that you write. I mean, there’s a lot of darkness there
1:33:05 in your songs. Yeah. And I do have some, I do have some whiter hearted ones too, that, uh,
1:33:08 that I’ll, you know, I mean, I’ve, the thing is, it’s like, I’ve only put out,
1:33:11 I I’m a little funny about like, really like,
1:33:16 God, I don’t know how many songs I have written that I will probably never do anything with.
1:33:20 Like, I mean, probably at least 20 or 30 of them that are just like,
1:33:23 they’re just not, I just don’t know why I don’t want to put them out, but just.
1:33:29 What does it look like? What do you have? Like a notebook with ideas or do you mean you have like
1:33:35 literal videos of half-baked songs? Yeah. I’ve got my old phone. Well, like even just that old phone
1:33:39 that I recorded all the stuff for Tik TOK and all on, it’s got loads of like little,
1:33:44 just like the way that Richmond one was where it was like in the bathroom facing this. And I had
1:33:48 like that, you know, that’s all that. Even that one I showed you on there, it had been sitting on my
1:33:52 phone probably a couple months before it. That’s why I said I have too many unfinished songs. It’s
1:33:57 exactly what I meant. I’ve got all these little snippets of things like a little blip here or there,
1:34:03 but the writing process is, well, it’s a lot different than I thought most people write. Cause
1:34:09 like in the, there’s a lot of people that do these writing rooms and stuff and they’ll have,
1:34:13 or, you know, these co-writes where they’ll have people sit down and they like sit on the couch and
1:34:17 smoke a joint and they’re like, all right, let’s write this song. And they just like start plugging
1:34:25 away. And they, to me, that’s like, I can’t do that. I have to just, it’s like almost the, it’s like
1:34:30 a lot of times the songs come when I’m not prepared for them. You like to be alone.
1:34:37 Well, alone in my head, I could be out and I could be anywhere in it. Right. You know,
1:34:41 some of them I’ll just be in the shower and they’ll just like, and I’m like scram because
1:34:47 the thing is, is like, Hmm, it’s a certain part of your brain, I guess, that creates that stuff or
1:34:52 picks it up or does whatever, but they come just, they come and they go just as quick as they come.
1:34:57 It’s like when you wake up, it’s exactly like when you wake up, you’ve had this crazy vivid dream in
1:35:02 your head and you wake up and it’s all right there. And then you stop thinking about it for like half a
1:35:06 second and then it all goes away and you’ll never remember it again. You know, like you can’t remember
1:35:10 your dreams like that. It’s exactly like that. It’s like, it’ll be there. It’s like, perfect.
1:35:14 Like it’s all right. It’s like, it’s, it’s almost like given to you, like just perfect,
1:35:19 like parts of it or the whole thing or whatever. And then you get into this flow state to where you just
1:35:22 like, it’s all there in front of you and you just figure it all out. And it’s like,
1:35:26 you’ve, it’s like somehow you’ve like unlocked this little part of your brain that you don’t
1:35:29 even really know how to get to, but you just get to, and it’s all there and you figure it out. But
1:35:34 man, if you don’t get it, it’s gone. Like you’ll never, you’ll never get it again. Like you’ll never
1:35:38 even be able to replicate that song ever again. It’s like, it’ll just go away. And typically it’s
1:35:44 like, it’s only maybe the first half of the first verse is what I’ll get, or it’ll be like the chorus
1:35:48 line I’ll get. And then I’ll build the rest of the song around that, if that makes sense,
1:35:52 well, the words or the music or the melody, like what, what pops into your head?
1:35:57 The emotion, I guess the words, sometimes it’s a phrase like, um,
1:36:03 like one thing I will do is like, especially out in the country, people say the craziest
1:36:08 people say the craziest things. And so sometimes I’ll like jot down a little bit of some,
1:36:12 like I will sometimes on my phone, take a little note. If somebody says something real crazy that I’ve
1:36:16 never heard before. And then maybe one day it’ll just pop in my head. Like, Oh yeah. You know,
1:36:21 I don’t know. It’s very random though. Like I don’t sit and just try to write songs. That’s
1:36:25 why I haven’t put out, like, that’s why I haven’t just been dumping out. Even though I have been
1:36:29 writing a lot of songs, I haven’t just been like dumping out all this crazy music. I don’t want
1:36:33 to force it. I don’t want to do truck beer girl songs or like, I, you know, I don’t want to force
1:36:39 song. I don’t want to like, do you have any truck beer girl songs? Cause that, that would be an
1:36:43 interesting. Yeah. I’ve got the silly one about this guy in West Virginia that, um,
1:36:49 he’s like the most, he’s the most laid back. Cause I always get in my head and go over
1:36:53 analytical about stuff and get real serious sometimes about things. And he’s like, buddy,
1:36:57 you just got to take a drag off this thing. And he’ll, you know, he was the one he’d always like,
1:37:02 like peer pressure me into taking a hit off a joint or something and like, just try to cheer.
1:37:06 And he just didn’t take life so seriously. So I’ve written this song about, it’s called Dr. Dan.
1:37:10 And it’s about, you know, he’s a doctor, but he’s not like a, he’s not like a conventional doctor.
1:37:16 That’s a silly one that I’ll put out. So I do have some silly ones like that. Um, I have a couple
1:37:20 of funny ones that I’ll, that I’ll never, ever, ever probably play to the public, but I did, I played
1:37:27 him at the mothership. Um, only cause nobody has their phones in there. But, uh, when after, right
1:37:32 after we did Rogan, I had, I got a chance. I got, somehow I got connected with Tom Segura right after
1:37:37 Rogan. And we went over to the mothership and I got to meet him. And I love Adam again, you know,
1:37:41 he, he was on the thing with Norm Macdonald is how I got introduced to him. That show Norm
1:37:46 Macdonald had, but he’s just, he’s an awesome dude. And so we, we ended up at the mothership.
1:37:52 Uh, I think it was the evening after the Rogan podcast. And, um, Tom’s like, well, they’ve never
1:37:56 had, they’ve never had live music in here. He’s like, you could be the first one. And I was
1:38:03 like, whatever. And so, uh, we only had one guitar and I had my guitarist, Joey with me.
1:38:09 So Ron White was there. It was Tom Segura and then Ron White that night. And Ron took
1:38:15 Joey in his car, drove him across town to his, uh, to his house and grabbed another guitar
1:38:20 and came back. And we got up there and we did like two really silly songs. And then Richmond
1:38:27 in between, um, in between Tom set and Ron set. And I was like, again, that was one of those
1:38:31 moments in my life where I was like, what, like, what, what is this? Like, what is this crazy
1:38:36 reality I’m in? But I do have some funny, I used to, cause a lot of, when I wasn’t playing
1:38:41 the open mics, you know, the, well, like, you know, Brian that you met, a lot of my guitar
1:38:44 playing was spent at places like his house and we were all heavy drinkers and we were just
1:38:48 sitting around at a party playing or whatever, you know? And so I definitely liked the silly
1:38:53 stuff too, but I was really in my head when we were talking about being low and what I would
1:38:57 suggest people to do if they’re in that point. But if I was just to like, not to flip this,
1:39:01 but just, it just popped in my head, but probably what I would tell anybody to do if
1:39:05 they’re like suicidal and thinking about, like, if they’re to that point is just to go find
1:39:12 some, go find somewhere outside, like in nature and go, that’s what, you know, that’s, I kind
1:39:17 of missed this step when we were talking about things, but like selling my house and buying
1:39:20 that property and putting a camper on it and trying to go into this whole off grid thing
1:39:25 really like, I don’t know. It, it does a lot of good for you being reconnected to nature
1:39:31 cause we are a part of it, but. Oh yeah. That’s, I’ve been to the junk. I went to the jungle
1:39:35 for that reason. Yeah. Being out of nature in every way is just, is beautiful. I saw you
1:39:40 got some, maybe, maybe that’s what I need to do is get some goats. I saw. I got two. I can
1:39:46 give you. I have more questions. Why are you giving them so easily? Are there issues I need
1:39:51 to know about? Well, they’re goats. Yeah. There’s no, there’s no free lunch, man. Hey, what,
1:39:56 how many, you got goats, you got, you got all kinds of animals. What’s the, so what’s the
1:40:00 story of you out in the woods? What are you doing out there? Uh, no comment. I’m just kidding.
1:40:06 Just trying to escape this dystopian nightmare that we’re all living under. Like just, it was
1:40:11 just a form of escapism, I guess. But you know, my, well, yeah, I think in such a short period
1:40:17 of time, my grandfather grew up like, you know, they were in a survival estate, like trying to
1:40:23 make enough money to pay the tax on their land, growing tobacco. And then here I am like in this
1:40:27 digital world, two generations later. And I’m just like, something’s not, you know, I’ve just felt,
1:40:32 just felt called to try to figure out, figure all that out and how to get back into that.
1:40:39 There’s just a, there’s such a purity to, man, if you raise an animal and kill it and eat it,
1:40:44 like, and I’m not talking about like, like Ted Nugent style, but just like, you know,
1:40:49 raising meat birds and pigs and stuff and being, having the ability to put those in the freezer
1:40:53 and cook them for dinner. Like they taste so much better, but it’s just, it feels, it’s just,
1:40:58 I don’t know how to describe it, but it just brings me joy. Um, being able to grow stuff and
1:41:04 even just flowers and everything else, just watching stuff that’s alive like that is just
1:41:09 such a, you know, my, what we’re doing now is I’ve bought this permaculture farm that hadn’t
1:41:15 been operational in like six or seven years. And, um, they did a lot of herbs. They had a big orchard,
1:41:22 blueberries, you know, but, um, my dream there is to create this space that, um, it’s like the optimal
1:41:28 place for humans to go to fix their mind. So like, like what’s the animals and the food that I can
1:41:32 have there and the trees that I can plant and the certain types of wildlife that I can bring in and
1:41:37 attract, like the noises and the sounds and the smells that are optimal for a human to be in,
1:41:43 in order to like fix whatever it is, you know, like, um, I had the opportunity to meet Robert Kennedy
1:41:48 Jr. Early on with all this. And, um, you know, he actually came out to my property and all we taught
1:41:53 and we’re still, I think the idea is that we’re going to launch this kind of like healing center thing
1:41:58 out there. Um, once he gets, once they get through all the mess that like they got their hands full,
1:42:03 a little bit right now with things, but whether I go that route or not, it’s like, that’s my goal
1:42:07 is to basically create a place that people can go and like, and fix their mind and find the optimal
1:42:13 thing. You know, we’ve got laying birds and meat birds. So we have, we get our eggs and meat and
1:42:18 then, um, we’ve done pigs and sheep and goats. And then I’m going to start with cat. I’m going to get
1:42:24 cattle in the spring. Um, so we’ll start doing like Wagyu and Angus and playing around with,
1:42:28 and I want to get some funny stuff too. Like, um, I just large animals have a lot of,
1:42:32 you know, there’s all these like large animal therapies out there for mental health, like
1:42:37 with vets and stuff. It’s just something, it’s something really relaxing and rewarding about
1:42:39 being in that space.
1:42:44 What do you, uh, what do you find out there in nature that you can’t find anywhere else?
1:42:50 You can’t find in the, in the, uh, quote civilized world.
1:42:55 Well, everything in civilization seems so like everything we’ve talked about, it seems so like
1:43:03 there’s such a level of despair and unorganization and chaos and just like, and all, and all these
1:43:10 like terrible parts of life that seem like so unstructured and just so uncertain, but in nature,
1:43:15 everything is certain. Everything has a system. Like even on the microbial level of soil, there’s
1:43:22 this like intricate system and, you know, soil, soil fixes it. Like the bacteria fixes the soil and like,
1:43:27 and you can grow certain types of plants to restore certain types of nutrients. And then that can grow
1:43:31 certain types of trees. And then that can bring in certain types of birds. And it’s like this whole
1:43:36 big nature is just this whole big, beautiful system. You know, like earth is just such an
1:43:42 intricate, complex system that is structured. And although there is chaos, there’s literal tornadoes,
1:43:46 you know, like the metaphor we were using earlier, like there are literal tornadoes in nature and
1:43:52 other things, but there’s, there’s a piece about observing the structure there. And to me, it like,
1:43:58 it just helps, it helps remind and restore my faith that there is something bigger than me that
1:44:04 like, yeah. And there’s a spiritual side to it that I don’t know that I can really correctly
1:44:10 articulate, but man, sitting out in the woods with some Creek flowing by you and just sitting in
1:44:15 stillness, like where you, you don’t hear anything. There’s no traffic from a road. There’s no,
1:44:18 you know, you’re just, you’re just there in stillness and just watching,
1:44:24 watching the earth do its things. Just I’ve gotten a chance to spend a day and a night
1:44:29 alone in deep in the Amazon jungle. That’s like my dream, man.
1:44:37 You basically take the woods and the Creek and the quiet, let’s put that like a three on a scale of
1:44:42 one to 10. The Amazon jungle is like an 11 because you’re not just listening to the Creek. You’re
1:44:50 listening to like a lot of different species of animal having sex or, or trying to kill each other.
1:44:58 And you’re just like birds, monkeys, just everything. And the, the, the, the floor full of insects,
1:45:05 bigger kinds of ants, murdering smaller kinds of ants. It’s an orchestra of, of insects, but there,
1:45:11 it’s quiet in the sense that there’s no machinery. The, the really dark thing about the Amazon reinforce
1:45:18 that sometimes depending on where you are, you’ll sometimes hear in the distance, the sound of a
1:45:26 chainsaw. You’ll hear like, yeah. And it pierces the day because like, there’s just no machinery
1:45:36 anywhere around. But once you hear it, it’s, you know, it is like this undeniable symbol of, uh, what
1:45:43 human civilization does to nature. It pains me seeing woods getting knocked down and residential,
1:45:50 residential subdivisions taking their place. Like this, like the monkey part of my brain wants to
1:45:54 just go burn it all down. Like, it’s just like, not good. Like, I don’t know. I just instinctually
1:45:59 observe it as being not good. And I don’t know exactly how to describe it, but I’m with you.
1:46:04 Like I, um, that was, like I said, that’s why I felt so compelled. I mean, we had, I had this little
1:46:10 house that I had maybe a little bit of equity in and I, it was in 2019 and the housing market was up.
1:46:15 And I was like, I sold our little house and got that. I was able to find 92 acres for like 1100 an
1:46:20 acre. And so I still had to finance it, but it was at least like within my, barely within my.
1:46:26 And so that’s what we did. We had a, you know, I was paying 600 a month on the land and I bought a
1:46:33 little camper for, for $750 off this hunt club in Waverly, Virginia and drug it up there. And that’s,
1:46:40 that’s what we had. And like went and bought a little, I got a little Kubota tractor for 0%
1:46:45 financing and was like cutting, like this property was a mile off the road. So I had to cut basically
1:46:50 like recut in old logging road and stuff. And you want to talk about putting a strain on your marriage?
1:46:56 That’ll do it, buddy is selling your, selling your modest little rancher and doing that. But
1:47:00 man, I was, that’s when I really started to live. And I think probably my, that was like the beginning
1:47:06 point of the restoration of, of, of me, you know, and I feel bad that a lot of people just don’t even
1:47:12 know what that’s like to be on a farm or be out in nature. And I can’t imagine just living in a
1:47:16 suburb or a city your whole life and never getting to experience that, you know, it’s good that we have
1:47:20 all this technology is great. And like the, the science and the innovation is important. And
1:47:25 even the fact that you can go on YouTube and look how, look up how to do almost anything is important.
1:47:32 It’s just that there isn’t a clear definitive line between what’s beneficial and educational and what’s
1:47:38 predatory and harmful. And so it’s like, it happens to me all the time, but I could go on YouTube and
1:47:44 look up how to change the brake shoes on my truck or something. And if I click on a short of somebody
1:47:49 doing it, I automatically, like I automatically go to the next video and I may be three or four
1:47:54 videos deep before I catch, I’m watching like, you know, some lady throw a pie at somebody. And then
1:47:57 pretty soon I’m like, wait, I’m changing my brake. That’s the only issue.
1:48:04 And then you’re just doom scrolling. And it, it, it does something to your mind. It just completely
1:48:06 takes the humanity away.
1:48:06 Yeah.
1:48:12 It’s, it’s, it’s, it’s really horrible. Like that dopamine thing does something to my mind
1:48:18 that I hate, which really is the opposite of nature. Like the feeling I remember being out
1:48:24 in nature and not just a hike hike is good, but like for prolonged periods of time, several
1:48:28 days away from the internet, away from all that. What is that? I don’t know what that is, but
1:48:35 I don’t like what X Twitter are doing. I don’t like what Instagram is doing, whatever that
1:48:37 is. I don’t think that’s good for the soul.
1:48:44 Yeah. It’s emulating things that we need to be healthy humans, but it’s just like feeding
1:48:51 it visually and audibly to us, but it’s not giving us the, it’s giving us the instant gratification
1:48:55 of it, but it’s not giving us the long-term pleasure or fulfillment of it. Like I said, like,
1:49:01 and the beauty is we’re in this weird period in time. Like it’s a breath of time that we’re in
1:49:09 where, where we are able to conceptualize and observe what life was like. And that transition
1:49:14 point that’s got us up till now. And we also have the, because in order for all this to,
1:49:20 to continue to evolve, like in order, like even with AI, like it needs us more than we need it right
1:49:25 now still for a very short period of time. But we have access to nearly all the information that
1:49:32 the world has theoretically, but we also still have the perception and the, the memory of what
1:49:38 life was like before it. And so this is like a very short window of time, like a breath of time where
1:49:45 I think we can find a way to like incorporate this into normal life. But I think like, if that breath
1:49:50 leaves us, like, I don’t know, I think it’s irreversible, you know, I believe that I truly believe it is
1:49:55 irreversible. And I think like, and that’s just going to be the end of us. And it, and it could take two or
1:50:00 three more generations to get to that point. But like, I, I think like, why don’t we find people
1:50:06 that are way smarter than me and, and look at all the things that trend on social media, like the
1:50:11 videos that everybody watches, like, I don’t know what it is, if it’s wood splitting and plumbing and
1:50:17 blacksmithing and doing something with like, let’s find all the things that people are attracted to
1:50:23 online that they obviously are like interested in and just figure out a way to have them in real life
1:50:26 for people to immerse themselves in. Yeah. I mean, it’s the transitionary state. And I,
1:50:32 one of the responsibilities I take very seriously, because I agree with you is I tried to pierce the
1:50:36 bubble that is San Francisco, that is the Silicon Valley, that is the people that build these
1:50:42 technologies. They, they often live a bit in a bubble. Yeah. That said, the people that criticize
1:50:48 tech folks also live in a bubble. Yeah. And to sort of, first of all, piercing bubbles in general is,
1:50:53 is good for people to get along to understand each other because, uh, people that say all technology is
1:51:01 evil, unfortunately technology, even if that’s true, which I don’t think it is, uh, you it’s coming,
1:51:07 uh, it’s going to be built. And so you have to figure out how to do it in a way that preserves our humanity,
1:51:15 that, that doesn’t drag us into this black hole of like just maximizing engagement, maximizing this
1:51:20 dopamine thing, or, where instead of reading Dostoevsky, which I should be doing, I’m looking at
1:51:24 some girl doing the shaking her ass on Instagram and then feeling horrible about myself five minutes
1:51:31 later, uh, that at scale seems to be happening. And so like reminding ourselves that this is not
1:51:36 the way to steer human civilization to progress, to flourishing.
1:51:42 The problem is, is I think we’re wasting a lot of our, our bandwidth, like a lot of the,
1:51:46 like we only have so many minutes in a day to even use our brains and our brains can only do,
1:51:53 but so much in a day anyway. And when we’re wasting any of it on just that, it’s like the,
1:52:00 it’s like, I, I see it in my own professional opinion as the world is becoming just a little more
1:52:06 in the last decade or two, as the world becomes a little more dreary and dark and more problems
1:52:12 happen and city streets become more littered and jobs are like all these kinds of problems that we’ve,
1:52:17 that we all argue about all the time as they become more prevalent. It’s like the internet and,
1:52:22 and just the visuals of the internet become so much more immersive and video games are so much more,
1:52:26 everything’s so much better here. Everything’s improving at lightning speed and technology
1:52:32 and it’s degrading in society and in the real world. And somehow there’s gotta, there’s gotta be
1:52:35 a way to find a balance there. But right now it seems like as technology becomes more immersive
1:52:40 and addictive and, and interactive, you know, like the way these algorithms like feed us exactly what
1:52:45 we want. And there’s so much psychology and just so much research that goes into making them as
1:52:50 addictive as possible. It’s like the real world kind of sucks. Like, you know, cities that were
1:52:56 beautiful and thriving are now falling apart, like, and, and, and have all kinds of problems that are
1:53:00 being unaddressed and lack of leader. It’s like, there’s gotta be some kind of way, but it’s, and so
1:53:06 it’s easy for us to feel more and more inclined to escape into the digital realm because the digital
1:53:10 realm is becoming more fun while real life is becoming less fun. And there’s gotta be some kind of
1:53:15 way to balance between the two. I’m with you. I’m not against technology at all. I think evil most
1:53:20 certainly existed long before there were computers, like, and, and in even more treacherous ways, like
1:53:26 now we have the ability to do, we’re, like I said, we’re in a very, we’re in a very temporary state
1:53:32 right now in 2025 where we have access, where the general public has access to basically all the
1:53:38 information there is and artificial intelligence and just immense, and the ability that like a guy can
1:53:42 just set a bunch of cameras up and start doing podcasts and have just the, like, even just the
1:53:47 fact that this, that your platform could be created is like immensely powerful. It never, probably never
1:53:52 existed in world history up until now, but we also still have, the problem is, is if we just keep going
1:54:00 without being careful about, about losing the real world aspect of it, is that like, at some point, we’re just
1:54:04 going to get so lost and so immersed in this space. We’re not even going to know what we’re, we’re not even
1:54:08 going to know what we’re missing out on. You know, all there’s going to be is girls on Instagram, like
1:54:13 all there’s going to be is that. Yeah, I’ve been trying to figure it all out. I just did a super
1:54:20 long podcast with, uh, Tim Sweeney, the CEO of Epic Games who created Fortnite and created Unreal Engine,
1:54:25 a lot of interesting video games, like revolutionary video games. So I don’t know if you know, but Fortnite
1:54:32 is this gigantic video game where people go into, uh, into an online world and they shoot stuff. It’s
1:54:39 fun. It’s, it’s not like Call of Duty intense, militaristic, like raw, real kind of shooting.
1:54:44 It’s more fun shooting at each other. But, you know, at first I was skeptical, like, is that a good way to
1:54:51 have, to hang out with friends? But then I got to do it with people that I’m actually friends with in
1:54:58 physical reality and you get to hear each other’s voice and you just talk and talk shit about each
1:55:05 other together. It’s basically a phone call, honestly, with some visuals. You’re not, it’s not
1:55:09 about the visuals. It’s about the phone call and it just makes it a little more convenient to connect
1:55:15 regularly. Yeah. But I think you do need to remember that all of that only works if you’re
1:55:22 consistently returning to physical reality. You know, um, in this case, like taking the quote
1:55:29 unquote, uh, guy trip, not the Brokeback Mountain style, but just friends, you know, just friends
1:55:35 trip out in nature together, like, like dudes on a hunting trip or, or just fishing or just hanging
1:55:40 out in physical reality together. It’s really a fun, like we should not forget the importance of that.
1:55:44 You talked earlier about loneliness. I think that got brought up at some point, but I do think
1:55:49 that’s like a big, that’s a problem that’s caused a lot of our symptoms is that we are all like very
1:55:55 lonely, even though we are all, we all seem to be so well connected digitally. We are all so lonely.
1:56:00 You got to think, I mean, modern warfare too, was a big thing. I was, I was supposed to be in class of
1:56:06 2010. So you can think like when I was in whatever grade, eighth grade or whatever, call of duty was like
1:56:12 the thing, you know, I, I’ve certainly like, trust me, I’m not saying that I, I’m right in this space
1:56:17 of digital immersion with anybody else. Like I’ve, I’ve, I’ve been there and seen it and done, you know,
1:56:21 like, but I, I’ve wasted who knows how many hundreds of hours on modern warfare too. And like,
1:56:28 I really built some great friendships from it. You know, I like, I, there’s, there’s a place for all
1:56:35 that stuff. It’s just like, we ha like, there is just this, we have this innate responsibility to
1:56:42 like, to, again, it just goes back to this, goes back to talking about our founding fathers and the
1:56:47 way this country was created and the importance and the, like the importance of, of what it did for
1:56:53 the world. Um, you know, and my, my understanding is that it was the first, it was the first time ever
1:56:57 that people got together and agreed that, like you said, every man was equal because they were created
1:57:01 in the image of God. They had unalienable rights that no government could take away from them. And
1:57:06 that’s really important. Like we, there won’t be fortnight if we don’t worry about that. And it,
1:57:11 and honestly, like just the collapsing in our structure with the mental health, with our youth
1:57:15 and the suicide rates with our blue collar workers and all these kinds of things we’ve touched and
1:57:19 talked about, like the, those are all just things. We just need more time together in real life to fix
1:57:25 those problems. Those are just things, like I said, I make the joke, but like, like there’s never been
1:57:29 one argument that I’ve, there’s never been one dispute with my wife that I’ve been able to
1:57:34 figure out how to fix through a text message or like it takes, it takes being in person with people
1:57:40 and, and like having human connection to fix any problem and heal anything, you know? And so it’s
1:57:44 difficult. It’s like, I don’t, it’s not anybody’s fault that we’re like that. We’re not even able to
1:57:48 really get to know each other and understand each other through the internet. Like we almost have to
1:57:53 be together in person to even just get each other’s point of view and perspectives on things. And
1:57:59 you know, yeah. Fuck the division that the internet creates, honestly, like the left and the right is,
1:58:04 it’s been, it’s been, it’s been kind of a nightmare for me just to watch. Cause I see the very simple
1:58:10 reality that we’re in it together and that there’s a lot more commonality between people. It seems cliche
1:58:18 to say, but it’s like, no, that needs to be said more than ever. Cause it, when you look on X, it feels
1:58:20 like everybody’s divided, but we’re not.
1:58:25 Well, and people are always going to think differently too. Like just in our structure and the way we, you know,
1:58:29 again, it’s like that, it goes back to that Jordan Peterson lecture about, I think in maps of meaning
1:58:34 where he talks about people who think more conservatively or more liberally about things like it’s been
1:58:40 applied to politics, but it is more, it’s based more in psychology than anything. Like some
1:58:44 people are going to have, some people are going to think more inside the box and some
1:58:47 people are going to think more outside the box, but we have to have both in order to have a healthy
1:58:55 society. Like, oh, and also the thing that bothers me, your song, Richmond, North of Richmond, a lot of
1:59:02 people, so a pretty even split people on the left and the right in terms of, uh, friends of mine.
1:59:10 And sadly they’ve drifted towards the extremes a bit. Uh, those on the left definitely
1:59:15 have developed a case of, uh, Trump derangement syndrome. Uh, those on the right seem to think
1:59:21 that every person on the left is a kind of radical leftist. Yeah. It’s, it’s, it’s like hilarious
1:59:28 to listen to, to people talk. It’s like everybody’s lost their mind. It feels like, but also on top of
1:59:37 on top of that, people on the right see Trump as, uh, as a savior, as this figure who is, who could do no
1:59:43 wrong, who’s going to restore freedom in America and all, you know, continue, you can do a full list of
1:59:50 really positive things. And to me, he’s yet another rich man, North of Richmond, Biden, Trump, it’s all the
1:59:56 same thing. Now, some might be able to do more good than others, but ultimately they’re in positions
2:00:05 of power and power corrupts. And those in, in those positions often forget about the everyday person,
2:00:11 the working class, and they leave them behind. Ultimately, uh, serve the people that are close to
2:00:18 them and sometimes serve themselves to maintain power, to grow their power. I think the good thing you can say
2:00:25 about them is they, I, and I could say that about both Donald Trump and Joe Biden, uh, is that they
2:00:32 really love their family. As I get, I could say that one of the things that I love about both people
2:00:40 is that they genuinely love their family. And like, it was always heartwarming to me to see how much
2:00:46 Joe Biden loves his family. Like, and, and honestly, like just do anything for his family. And this,
2:00:51 the same is true for Trump. And that just reminds you that they’re human beings. And yeah, all that
2:00:59 to say is like, we need to see the humanity in each of us. Uh, and to some degree, always distrust the
2:01:00 people in power.
2:01:05 The power that people have only exists because we allow it, whether willingly or just through our
2:01:11 own negligence. But I think that’s the important thing is like, like I said, there’s always more of
2:01:15 us than there will be a them. There’s always more, there’s always more nobodies than there ever will
2:01:20 be people at the top. And we just have to figure out what to do with that and how to, and I think
2:01:25 this is, like I said, a short window of time to, to where we can still figure that out. You know,
2:01:31 I got to ask you about something before I forget. I think I saw on Instagram, you talked about a
2:01:36 three-legged cat. Is that a real thing? What’s the story behind the three-legged cat? The reason
2:01:40 I want to ask you that, first of all, I want to hear this story. And second of all, I want to read
2:01:45 to you, uh, one of my favorite Bukowski poems afterwards about another cat. All right. What’s
2:01:54 the story? I had this cat lady neighbor who’s a real sweet lady, but, um, older lady lives in a
2:02:01 trail, single wide trailer has probably got, I don’t know, 30 or 40 cats that she feeds at her house.
2:02:05 Nice. It was a rainy Saturday morning. It was pouring down rain. It was going to be like, it was
2:02:08 like eight o’clock in the morning on Saturday. It was going to be a great day. I was going to,
2:02:14 and then I hear this lady yelling, there’s this cat stuck in my car. She’s all freaking out and don’t
2:02:18 know what to do. And like I said, my wife’s a veterinary technician or whatever. So she’s got
2:02:22 a little bit more sense about animals than any of us, but we go over there and the ladies tried to
2:02:28 start her car and there’s this kitten that was up under the hood and she started the car and the cat.
2:02:34 Basically it, it, it basically almost ripped its whole front leg off already. There was just a
2:02:39 little bit still attached, like some tendon or whatever, but the, the leg was like wrapped up
2:02:43 under the water pump, like the pulley, the water pump, knock the bell off. There was no way to
2:02:49 get, there was no way to save this leg on this guy. It was like, and, but the cat was like pinned
2:02:55 upside down. And so we ended up grabbing a, we asked the lady if she had like a knife in the house.
2:02:59 So she gave us this like terrible looking knife, but it’s all that we had. You know, I was like,
2:03:04 we were trying to get this done. So yeah, my wife was the one that did it, but we like got the rest of
2:03:11 the stuff cut and got the cat out and I’m, and I don’t know. I just like to spend like,
2:03:18 however, I was like over a grand we spent given like getting this cat’s likes getting it properly
2:03:23 sutured or whatever to where the cat could have a healthy recovery and all. But I’m one of those
2:03:26 type of people. Like I’m not going to, I couldn’t just let this little, I’m not going to go. They
2:03:31 were going to just go put the cat down or whatever the lady, you know? So yeah, it’s my,
2:03:37 I named her hop. So that’s my little cat and it hops around. And, but it was one of those things
2:03:42 where, uh, yeah, I don’t know. I just, great example with animals. Uh, I guess it’s the same
2:03:45 way with people. I just always see the best and I just couldn’t.
2:03:52 Yeah. I mean, that’s one of the most amazing things about humans. It’s, it’s irrational to
2:03:57 spend that much money on this cat, right? Because there’s so many other cats that are suffering and
2:04:02 dying and so on, but that’s what makes humans really special. We see that the, the, the, the,
2:04:08 the, the person or the creature suffering in front of us and the, we’re, we’re willing to move
2:04:15 mountains to save that person. Like it’s irrational. Maybe it doesn’t make sense because the
2:04:20 allocation of money and effort might not be correct, whatever. Uh, we just don’t give a
2:04:24 shit. The reason that we’re willing to do it for a cat, like I said, it’s just like the thing with
2:04:29 the dogs about giving the dogs your medication, but not yourself. So we see all the flaws and all the
2:04:33 problems and all the disagreements and all the anger we have with each other. Just like you said,
2:04:37 your friends on the right and the left and stuff. And like, we could show that kind of compassion
2:04:41 and we do. I mean, humanity does from time to time show that kind of compassion, but we could show
2:04:49 that kind of like just undeserved, just, just love, you know, to each other too. Like, and
2:04:57 love is like, it’s funny, you know, you talked about how both of those presidents, you could say
2:05:03 they at least love their family, but love is like, I think everyone’s capable of love. It’s probably the
2:05:09 most powerful thing there is even beyond hate, I think is, you know, like, but it is crazy with animals.
2:05:13 So it comes out of us so easily with animals because they, to us, they’re in there, there’s
2:05:18 these innocent little lives. We don’t have anything against them, you know, like they don’t have,
2:05:24 they don’t, they don’t, they don’t talk. They don’t have political views. They don’t,
2:05:29 they’re just little creatures, but the reality is we’re all just, we’re all just creatures like that.
2:05:35 We do that with human children. Yeah. But we don’t do it enough with adults who are also kinds of
2:05:42 children. They’re still, we’re still like, we’re still fucking lost in this world. So I gotta, I gotta
2:05:47 read you, I gotta read you this. It’s gotta be one of my favorite poems. It’s called the history of one
2:05:54 tough motherfucker by Charles Bukowski. And people should go look at videos. There’s videos of Bukowski doing
2:06:01 interviews with a cat by his side. And that’s the cat he’s talking about. All right. It goes like this.
2:06:08 He came to the door one night, wet, thin, beaten, and terrorized. A white, cross-eyed,
2:06:17 tailless cat. I took him in and fed him and he stayed. Grew to trust me until a friend drove up
2:06:24 the driveway and ran him over. I took what was left to a vet who said, not much chance. Give him these
2:06:31 pills. His backbone is crushed, but it was crushed before and somehow mended. If he lives, he’ll never
2:06:38 walk. Look at these x-rays. He’s been shot. Look here. The pellets are still there. Also, he once had a
2:06:46 tail. Somebody cut it off. I took the cat back. It was a hot summer, one of the hottest in decades.
2:06:52 I put him on the bathroom floor, gave him water and pills. He wouldn’t eat. He wouldn’t touch the water.
2:06:58 I dipped my finger into it and wet his mouth and I talked to him. I didn’t go anywhere. I put in a lot
2:07:04 of bathroom time and talked to him and gently touched him and he looked back at me with those
2:07:12 pale blue crossed eyes. And as the days went by, he made his first move, dragging himself forward by his
2:07:19 front legs. The rear ones wouldn’t work. He made it to the litter box, crawled over and in. It was like
2:07:25 the trumpet of possible victory blowing in that bathroom and into the city. I related to that cat.
2:07:34 I had it bad. Not that bad, but bad enough. One morning he got up, stood up, fell back down and just
2:07:44 looked at me. You can make it, I said to him. He kept trying. Getting up, falling down. Finally, he walked a few
2:07:50 steps. He was like a drunk. The rear legs just didn’t want to do it and he fell again, rested,
2:07:58 then got up. You know the rest. Now he’s better than ever. Cross-eyed, almost toothless, but the grace is
2:08:05 back. And that look in his eyes never left. And now sometimes I’m interviewed. They want to hear about
2:08:14 life and literature. And I get drunk and hold up my cross-eyed shot, run over a detailed cat. And I say,
2:08:22 look, look at this. But they don’t understand. They say something like, you say you’ve been influenced by
2:08:32 Celine. No. I hold the cat up, influenced by what happens, by things like this, by this, by this. I shake the
2:08:40 cat, hold him up in the smoky and drunken light. He’s relaxed. He knows. It’s then that the interviews
2:08:48 end. Although I am proud sometimes when I see the pictures later and there I am and there’s the cat
2:08:56 and we are photographed together. He too knows it’s bullshit, but that somehow it all helps.
2:09:06 So when you posted about the three-legged cat, there you go. And I think of your music and
2:09:12 your life story in the same way. It’s just been through some shit, just like Bukowski. Neither of
2:09:17 you two have been through what that cat’s been through. But you know, that’s kind of life. That’s
2:09:24 what it’s all about. Uh, I was wondering if you could play a couple songs. Sure. Yeah. Okay. Cool.
2:09:28 Do you want to take a break or no? Um, no, I’m good. Am I, we might have to take a break just,
2:09:39 just for me to get this figured out. But of course. Yeah. Where’s, where is the guitar? Like
2:09:42 where, no, like positionally. I think, yeah, I think this will be fine.
2:09:45 So ghetto.
2:09:51 Call Draven and be like, who?
2:10:02 Well, if you, I guess I’ll do, um, if I was going to do anything on here from the older songs,
2:10:07 it, that was related both to everything we’ve talked about. It’d probably be, I want to go home.
2:10:08 So it’s good.
2:10:34 If you want for my old dogs and the good Lord, they’d have me strung up in the sideboard.
2:10:45 Cause every day living in this new world is one too many days to me. Son, we’re on the brink
2:10:56 of the next world war. And I don’t think nobody’s praying no more. And I ain’t saying I know it for
2:11:07 sure. I’m just down on my knees begging the Lord, take me home. I want to go home.
2:11:21 I don’t know which road to go. It’s been so long. I just know I didn’t used to wake up feeling this way.
2:11:32 I just do what the TV say. I want to go home.
2:11:39 I want to go home.
2:11:50 I want to go home.
2:11:51 I want to go home.
2:12:01 I want to go home.
2:12:02 I want to go home.
2:12:02 I want to go home.
2:12:02 I want to go home.
2:12:05 The trees go down
2:12:09 Only got concrete growing around
2:12:11 And I wanna go home
2:12:16 I wanna go home
2:12:21 I don’t know which road to go
2:12:24 It’s been so long
2:12:28 I just know I didn’t used to wake up
2:12:30 Feeling this way
2:12:34 Cussing myself every damn day
2:12:38 There’s always some kind of bill to pay
2:12:43 People just doing what the rich man say
2:12:45 I wanna go home
2:13:18 If it weren’t for my old dogs and the good Lord
2:13:23 They’d have me strung up in the sideboard
2:13:29 That’s probably one of the first
2:13:31 I don’t know, it’s not the first song I wrote, but one of them.
2:13:35 What a song, man, what a song, what a song
2:13:37 What’s the story of that guitar?
2:13:49 Well, the guy who made this like saved my butt because everything blew up and I was playing that little Gretsch resonator that’s in all the original videos and my wife had got me that off of Amazon, I think, or something.
2:13:57 Like three or four hundred bucks, it’s like three or four hundred bucks, it’s like three or four hundred bucks, it’s like a just an entry level like import little Gretsch and the pickup never would work right in it.
2:14:00 So this string would wouldn’t work when you plug it in.
2:14:03 So here we are, everything happens all at once.
2:14:08 And we’re trying to do these shows and like, you know, I think the biggest one I did.
2:14:17 So basically what I ended up having to do was go, I bought one of these suction cup rigs that sticks right here and the mic goes down under here to pick that string up.
2:14:28 And I played like, we played like a, I think the biggest show I did with it was like 10,000 people, but it was enough to where I couldn’t be doing a $300 guitar with a, with a rigged up thing on it anymore.
2:14:29 It just wasn’t going to work.
2:14:38 So this guy reached out and, um, Gretsch wouldn’t help me with my Gret, like, you know, there’s no way to really get ahold of them because they’re such a big company at the, I,
2:14:41 I finally did get ahold of Diane Gretsch and she’s like really nice.
2:14:44 And so it’s nothing personal against Gretsch.
2:14:45 It’s just at the time I couldn’t get ahold of them.
2:14:55 I figured I would have been able to, cause like everywhere sold out of those, that Gretsch model when the song blew up, you know, like it was a real pop, but that couldn’t get ahold of them.
2:15:03 So this guy, Beard Guitar, Paul Beard in Maryland, he reached out, fixed my Gretsch and then, um, gave me one of these and made it with the, but it’s all handmade and all.
2:15:10 It’s like, yeah, you can like whack somebody over the head with it pretty good.
2:15:11 Yeah, nice and heavy.
2:15:15 But yeah, he makes them all by hand, uh, a little family owned place.
2:15:19 And I know nothing about resonating guitars.
2:15:23 Is that like, uh, do you play regular acoustic?
2:15:24 Yeah.
2:15:25 It’s just basically a regular acoustic.
2:15:27 It’s just a full step down.
2:15:27 It’s the only difference.
2:15:29 I’ve just got it tuned all the way down.
2:15:29 Is that it?
2:15:33 Cause there’s also like the, this whole vibe to it.
2:15:33 Oh yeah.
2:15:34 Well, the body’s different.
2:15:40 So you can see it’s got like a, it’s got like a solid core, you know, instead of it being a hollow body, like an acoustic, it’s got that.
2:15:42 It almost looks like a hubcap, that black.
2:15:42 And they call the court.
2:15:44 That’s all the same.
2:15:45 Yeah.
2:15:45 It’s just the same.
2:15:46 Yeah.
2:15:48 I wouldn’t be smart enough to play anything special.
2:15:50 Like it’s just a regular old guitar.
2:15:50 I don’t know.
2:15:51 There’s a different vibe to it.
2:15:52 Yeah.
2:15:53 Well, I like that.
2:15:53 Cooler.
2:16:04 Well, the old, I’m real, I’m real fond of like the older music, like, um, so like where all my family’s from, so my dad was adopted.
2:16:05 So I don’t have any family.
2:16:07 Like Lunsford’s not really even a real last name to me.
2:16:11 They’re all just, it was just my grandparents that adopted my dad.
2:16:16 So all of my family’s Engel is like I-N-G-L-E.
2:16:18 That’s like my real, that’s all my mom’s side of my family.
2:16:25 And, um, they’re all from this place about 20 miles from where like the Carter family was from.
2:16:31 So all that old Virginia, like kind of bluegrass folk music and stuff.
2:16:33 And so I, I was just always attracted to that.
2:16:37 And so that’s, I like the, I like the resonator a full step down.
2:16:40 Cause it, to me, it kind of gives it that old sound.
2:16:47 Like, um, you know, a lot of the instruments back then had like bad dull strings and they were older and they were out of tune a little bit and stuff.
2:16:49 And I just, I listened to a lot of that type of music.
2:16:53 So I like, I like the strings being a little out of tune and dull and not everything.
2:16:54 And just that.
2:16:55 Yeah.
2:16:57 That’s why I was so attracted to it.
2:17:00 Plus like some of the old blues players, like, you know.
2:17:03 Playing the dobro and stuff.
2:17:07 But that was my, that’s why I wanted to get the resonator was just because of that old.
2:17:23 I mean, that’s even why, like, you know, I had to use my grandpa’s name as an alias, but that Oliver Anthony music is really supposed to represent like old music from like 1930s Virginia or something like, you know, like it’s kind of got that type of feel to it, or at least in its core, you know.
2:17:27 It feels like from another time, but it also feels timeless.
2:17:41 It’s also that my music catalog is so limited, like of what I listened to that a lot of what’s in my head, like, cause you think about when you’re writing songs and like coming up with chord progressions and stuff, you’re really, whether you realize it or not, it’s all being influenced off of other songs.
2:17:48 So when you only have a lot of older music and like some, a little bit of metal and stuff in there, it’s like, there’s not really a whole lot.
2:17:54 It’s like that, you know, it’s kind of going to sound that way, I guess, just in any way, cause that’s what’s in your head already.
2:17:57 So you’re going to go out there a little bit this year.
2:18:02 Well, what, uh, what are some things you’re looking forward to?
2:18:03 You’re going to travel a bit.
2:18:04 You’re going to play a bit.
2:18:18 The idea is, is to go to a town, like let’s just use Iowa as an example, instead of, instead of the big city in Iowa playing at the venue where everybody books, let’s find a farm field, 45 minutes outside of that big city.
2:18:36 Figure out the ingress, egress, the security, find a good promoter that can like a show organizer, basically that has experience to where it’s still, it’s still professional and it’s done correctly, but establish like a new venue space that can’t be, that can’t be put under contract by a monopoly that any artist can go play.
2:18:48 Like without, like if, if all these musicians are sick of Ticketmaster and Live Nation, then let’s just, let’s just start playing in fields and on main streets and set these venues up and establish them correctly.
2:18:50 And professionally to where they exist as their own space.
2:19:04 And then, and then imagine the economic impact that would provide to a town that otherwise would never have, like, and imagine what you, you want to talk about trying to give blue collar people like some hope or give them some relatability or do anything for them.
2:19:11 Like bring a big band to their town that they would otherwise have to drive an hour and a half somewhere to see and couldn’t even afford the tickets to start with.
2:19:17 Like my tour last year, pretty much every show we did that was mine had a $25 ticket option and everybody scoffed at that.
2:19:22 And I just, I was basically like made fun of for that by people in the professional space.
2:19:26 Even people I was working with, they just thought it was so stupid, but you know what?
2:19:33 There were people at my shows that came up and the kids were wearing hand-me-down clothes and, and like, you could tell they didn’t have any money.
2:19:37 And they, and they said it meant a lot to them that they could come and that there was a $25 option.
2:19:44 And so, and I’ll continue to do these shows like this to where any band that wants to come play the show, all their expenses are covered.
2:19:52 And I’m sure there’s some kind of tax write-off component to them for them, but basically they can come in, do the show, help bring in a crowd.
2:19:56 Like I’m taking the risk, setting the venue up and establishing it.
2:20:02 The venue will be owned or managed by either the town or the farm or whatever, but it’s, it’s, it’ll be in a nonprofit.
2:20:05 And then that, that space will always exist for people to rent.
2:20:16 And the idea is, it’s like, man, imagine if I did, if I could do 20 of these a year, even if that’s, even if that’s all I can get done, like that’s 20 places that will always have music.
2:20:20 And we’ll always have a center where people can go like, and build this sense of community.
2:20:29 We talked about, like, it’s almost like a sanctuary if you want to call it that, but it’s like a, it’s just a space that can’t be perverted by, by corporate America.
2:20:33 And just a place where people can go and like, do all these things that we want to do.
2:20:35 Um, what are you excited for this year?
2:20:41 Obviously you’re going to travel overseas and you got, sounds like you got some, some other cool stuff you’re going to do.
2:20:41 Yeah.
2:20:47 I’m going to see, uh, I’m going to see some world leaders, hopefully not end up in prison anywhere.
2:20:57 Um, part, part of that, honestly, I’m excited, you know, like India to see the same humans, but in very different parts of the world.
2:21:12 I’m not a travel guy, but I love seeing humans that there’s like a lot of us humans all over the place and they’re very different and they have funny accents and just funny way of being, you know, so I’m excited to take it all in.
2:21:14 Cause I fundamentally love people.
2:21:15 Yeah, man.
2:21:24 Like I, I, uh, I would definitely say if you’re ever up, if you’re ever over towards Virginia or West Virginia, either one there, like, yeah.
2:21:37 It’d be cool to spend a couple of days out in the woods or a day out in the woods and do, I, I haven’t really, I was, I’m really new to the whole psilocybin thing, but I have tried a few smaller doses of it actually to help with being up on stage and all.
2:21:40 Um, it’s an interesting thing, but it’s great.
2:21:40 Yeah.
2:21:43 The dog, definitely the dogs in the woods part.
2:21:44 I got you on that.
2:21:46 Uh, I would love to join in.
2:21:53 I mean, I’ve, I’ve, I’ve taken mushrooms a few times and listen, I usually just love everything anyway, but with mushrooms, you just love it a little bit more.
2:22:01 Like, especially out of nature, when I’m look out in nature, I’m just in awe of how incredibly beautiful it is.
2:22:05 And just like a stare at a tree for hours.
2:22:13 And then you take mushrooms and like that tree starts like having some more dynamism to it.
2:22:18 So it’s just a little boost, but like, yeah, I get into this crazy, like I said, it’s only been a handful of times.
2:22:38 Cause I’ve, I don’t know, it’s one of those things where it’s, I’m, it’s still a little unfamiliar to me, but like, like talking about trees and psilocybin, you know, you think about, you start to look in those trees and you think like, in their relative perspective of time, you know, cause they’re constantly moving around and growing and doing all these things.
2:22:44 And you think about like, in their perspective, maybe we’re just, we’re just moving way faster than their perception.
2:22:46 And they’re, they’re moving at just a normal speed.
2:22:51 I don’t, it’s just that you get into all these crazy trains of thought when you sit out in the woods on that stuff, but.
2:22:52 A hundred percent, man.
2:22:55 I mean, like maybe that’s the history of, uh, life.
2:23:11 I mean, humans have some chance of destroying 95, 99% of the population with nuclear weapons and the trees will remain and they will reconstruct the environment of earth and help the few humans that remain to survive.
2:23:16 And it’ll be the fucking trees that we’d be grateful for their actual deep life.
2:23:19 ancient, uh, wisdom.
2:23:22 So maybe they’re the intelligent ones.
2:23:23 Maybe we’re the idiots.
2:23:32 When you’re out in nature like that and just reading, but we’re just looking at and studying the way all those systems work with soil and trees and animals and how it all just integrates in together.
2:23:42 It does give you some sense of peace that maybe there is some, there is some system at place that’s out of our hands that can just help us with our fault, our faults and our repercussions.
2:23:52 And again, like for me, just, um, yeah, I think just being out there, especially now that now looking at it through the lens of, of God, of their, you know, of, of God, it helps.
2:24:02 There’s, I’ve found no greater peace than just being out in the woods and, and praying or just, just trying to focus my mind on, on that.
2:24:04 Like I, but yeah, I would love for you to come out there sometime and.
2:24:06 I’m 100% will.
2:24:07 That is it.
2:24:13 Um, see, like feeling peaceful out in Virginia, in the woods is easy.
2:24:15 Try doing it in the Amazon jungle when a giant.
2:24:16 Oh, I’d love, dude.
2:24:16 I.
2:24:18 And just bites you.
2:24:19 Dude, I would do anything to go to the Amazon.
2:24:21 And all of the peace is, is, is gone.
2:24:29 You’re like, motherfucker, what do you, what is, and then like a second one joins in, kills the first one and bites you again.
2:24:32 And then you’re like, okay, nature is not all.
2:24:33 Yeah, it’s not.
2:24:39 I mean, there is, uh, there is harmony to it, but part of the harmony is the violence.
2:24:40 Yeah.
2:24:42 It’s just the reality of it.
2:24:45 It’s, um, sex and violence.
2:24:49 Like, I guess that’s the thing about it though, is like, it has all the same components of humanity.
2:24:53 Just almost, you know, like almost to a comical level.
2:24:56 I mean, the real comedy is the monkeys up in the trees.
2:25:03 They’re just, it’s like, it’s like little humans and they’re arguing, screaming at each other, throwing stuff, getting into fights.
2:25:11 It’s like, it’s like reality TV, but like more pure, more real, more distilled down to his fundamentals.
2:25:19 Like we, we are that, you know, we, we put on clothes these days and have a fancy.
2:25:25 Words that we say to each other and look all sexy on Instagram, but we’re the same monkeys, apes.
2:25:30 It’s like the old lobsters, you know, but it really is true.
2:25:38 Like, like, uh, we all, we all, yeah, we’re all on that same kind of same operating system in a way.
2:25:40 Brother, this was a huge honor.
2:25:44 I can’t, I don’t have the words to describe how incredible this was.
2:25:48 And I think, uh, it was just fun.
2:25:49 It was really fun talking to you.
2:25:52 Total honor to be able to come on here for me as well.
2:26:02 And, um, especially just to get to meet you in real life and see like, you know, you are what I, you are what I expected you to be like in a good way.
2:26:05 Like, you know, you just don’t ever like, yeah, you’re just, you’re a good dude.
2:26:07 So I appreciate what you’re doing.
2:26:12 I got to show you the sex dungeon downstairs where I keep sex slaves.
2:26:13 It’s very different.
2:26:14 No.
2:26:15 Yeah, man.
2:26:16 All right.
2:26:16 Time to wake up.
2:26:17 Let’s go back to reality.
2:26:22 Thanks for listening to this conversation with Oliver Anthony.
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2:26:29 And now, let me leave you with some words from George Orwell.
2:26:36 Political language is designed to make lies sound truthful and murder respectable.
2:26:40 And to give an appearance of solidity to pure wind.
2:26:45 Thank you for listening and hope to see you next time.
2:26:50 Bye.